Summer time

Whew! I’m glad I was able to complete all the checkout processes at the end of the school year. I struggled and nearly burned out, ready to walk out the door. I had a mentor who made this week impossible, but I did not back down. I got support one way or another. Life just throws me more bombs but I overcome them.

I was able to take a personal day off to attend my daughter’s promotion day. I wish I had spent the whole day with her but I knew there was still ‘work’ calling me. She instead spent it with her daddy. One day with her daddy, is him to see how he could fulfill her needs.

I went back to work to catch up on those Cum files. My boss is strict and that’s what I admire her for. I do want to be a pro at what I propose to do. With the bad experiences I had before the end of the school year, I don’t wish it for anybody no matter who. If I were a pro at doing IEP’s, etc., I would mentor a new teacher, and take the time to walk them through. My boss has the heart to guide me and any other teachers pinching in their time to show me at maximum. That’s one of the reasons why I chose to stay for the next academic school year. To come back prepared to have the tools and learn new challenges and possibly be a site mentor and help others so they don’t be in my shoes. Also, I do like my kiddos. I wish that I wasn’t involved with so many daily activities like going to my evening pre-service and the stress loads.

I’m going to miss my boss. She’s going to the Bahamas this summer. She deserves a long summer break. Believe it or not, I think about her every day and night. I know it’s impossible. If I could only see her pretty face, away from her professional self, I dreamed of asking her out. I never thought I would break my professionalism for someone very rare to bump into this world. She’s married and I hugely doubt she’ll even like same-sex individuals like me anyway. If I keep dreaming, then I will. It’s less painful than having her upfront tell her directly. I don’t need any rejection nor feel intimidated by her odd behavior. Being in a professional life is exactly where I want to be and having work-related concerns is key to continuing to see her pretty face…