Not looking forward to confession

Went shopping with mum today. We got some stuff for school and I got to buy a new dress for church. I wasn’t sure which one to choose so I let mum choose.  The other one was a bit more fitted and I knew mum wouldn’t pick that one but I don’t mind really.

Still felt a bit funny today. Could feel myself getting frustrated sometimes even though there wasn’t really a good reason. I started welling up just coz of a charity advert! Sometimes I just felt I had to swallow down a random emotion that didn’t make sense

This guy smiled at me when he walked past the car while I was waiting for mum. Normally I’d feel embarrassed and weird if that happened because of how it made me feel but I decided to try not to overthink it and just let it happen. Fortunately mum didn’t notice. He was really nice looking. Mum kept giving me jobs to do when we got home and I’ve only just got upstairs. Going to have some private time once I’ve finished this.

Got church in the morning but got confession first. I do feel better after confession but it’s still embarrassing. I just find ways of phrasing it.  Night night.

Poppy