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So things happen for a reason… What is the reason for some things? Should I be happy that what ever was wrong, is over? Should I be upset that I…. oh golly… What now? where do I go? what Do I do??? Hmmmm……. Why is it, I feel so alone most of the time and there seems like No one can see it. What make me feel this way? Am I supposed to end up with him? Is that why I can’t help but be like… Gitty? when I know he’s coming up to viset? Or is it because we’ve been friends for so dang long? Then… Why does it seem like I can’t help but hurt the other one? well… I guess that’s just life. Having a guy say he’s sorry is just one of those things, You kinda have to see where it’s going to go from there. Dang life… Some times i just have to wonder. I keep having these dreams… him proposing, me saying yes. Picking out the wedding stuff. I dont know… Maybe i’m just not over him… But wow. it amaizes me for the fact that the other one, There was nothing to get over. hmmmmmmmmm…….. well. i have to get going… too bad that that’s what I’ve got for today’s thoughts… to start with anyways.