Friend problems
She’s had a bad week… I’ve had a good one. Life stinks but who am I to complain? She said I am obsessing lately… Why? Because I like someone, And it’s only been ONE person? Ok… I guess I’ll be biting my lip for a while and just shut up… She doesn’t want to hear anything about me. She didn’t think it was funny I had my 8 kids together… Geesh… She’s been a crank, Then as soon as we start having some fun, she gets a smile and then she remembers some crap with one of the men in her life and just AHH! What the heck! Why does it seem like If I’m sad, She’s happy… If I’m doing anything she’s not… Ok, So I like my job. Little pay but at least it’s something. She makes like 4 times more then me. But because I go to work, I have money to spend doing stuff. So going out, I had to spend my gas money. That means I don’t have enough to go through the week. Let alone make it to my day off on Wednesday. But It’s ok because she doens’t think its a big deal. This stinks! I guess we’re not going to breakfast ever again, and we’re not going dancing for a long ass time. And lets see… All the fun stuff we usually do? Not anymore. Just sitting around with the kids and her husband and letting everyone fight. She’s upset that I was trying to tease about getting married out of no where, and moving to the other side of the state. But guess what? I might really MOVE! I don’t know yet. Even if it’s only three towns over, I still might be getting out of here. Jeesh, I got a $200 pay check, I paid rent for 130, had my daughter’s Birthday, (pesent for allison -21 (Plates small stuff- 10), McDonald’s meals -15, gas-10, Caddy Ranch -5, food-2… I have 7 dollars left? WHAT THE HECK! Maybe I shouldn’t have told her I’d go with her last night? I had ten dollars left from last week so I have 15 bucks in my wallet, But this is BS!
Why is it that I can’t ever be happy? Its like If I am, Things I worked hard for get screwed up? Shes mad because I’ve been on a roller coaster ride for the past 3 years. Well part of that is my fault. What about her with her flings? Her obsession of the week. Yeah, I’m the one with the problems. Its like, If you love someone so much you can’t not talk to them because your world falls apart. How do you go on without thinking in the longterm? I know I shouldn’t but, After knowing him for 15 years and knowing there’s too much with us not to… I don’t know… But she doens’t seem like she cares… I can’t do anything right. Paying my rent makes it so I litterally can’t do anything else. FUCKERS! This is shit! I am really mad, I can’t tell her that because she’ll bite off my head. This stinks… I wish she was non judgemental… Guess when you’re friends for a certain amount of time, that’s all you end up being… This is the only guy she can’t tell me her oppionion about. It’s like He makes me feel so good when we talk. I wonder sometimes… Why are we friends when she can bring me down like that? I always try to let her have fun when we’re out. Even if everything stinks. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! She won’t read this, She knows about it, But never comes here. She doesn’t realize I rant and rave about her. She doesn’t see my side. Everything is about HER! If it’s not Her Way ITs not at all… Yeah, I had to watch her kids for a few hours so they could go looking at cars. Did I get paid? Nope… She couldn’t even pay the 7 dollars for me to go with her last night. Yeah… She makes $550 a week, Her husband gets $500 from a paper root, and $700 or more a week from his job. I’m the one who is supporting my kids on 140-200 a week. I make 7.90, and they’re having me do a job that I should be making 14. This stinks… What the heck is wrong with me? I am going to be glad once I get a job that pays more. I have to wonder what is wrong with me.
I gotta go to work, I’m going to be late….. AHHHHHHHHHHH
More crap to put up with… And hey, The guy thats supposed to be there, Hasnt’ been there for a week. I’m doing his job!