Thoughts…

It amaizes me how things seem to work out. You really need to loose someone dear to you to understand when the best person comes around. I’ve lost love before but it wasn’t like this. I think I might go to the seventh floor if I were to loose this one… We’re talking about moving in with eachother after the lease is up here. I think that might be a good thing. He loves seeing my children. He’s looking forward to spending all day today working and seeing them. Next weekend we’re going fishing and probably doing something else. We’ll see. He wants to bring me out to dinner tonight. *Why?* I like spending time with him. Even when we’re doing nothing. Last night we slept together without sex. That was a very good night sleep. Yeah, Me… Going to a guys house for sleep. That’s kinda cool! He was looking forward to getting some. But I kinda didn’t feel like it. And wasn’t too dissappointed to find out that his uncle didn’t want to go to bed until 4 am! But it’s all good. I got to sleep in my fav. way. *Nothing* and he’s become my pellow. I’m very happy to report tonight I get to run away to be with him again. Yeah, I’m a very happy person today. I like waking up in his arms. He’s irrisistable… Don’t ask me why… but he is. I laugh at myself sometimes. Thinking about the fact I cant’ keep my hands off his muscles. But if you had arms like that, I prob. wouldn’t keep off either. K. think’s its funny! I’m a differant person when he’s around. I don’t know what happens. But I like it. I enjoy this junk! The hugging and kissing and feeling… OK! TMI but I dont’ care! I am shocked that I can’t remember what the pain i had before was. K said she’s not going to tell me what happened. and she’s happy to see me happy. I know what happened to me. but I don’t care. It’s like I met MM and everything bad that happened just flew away. like Nothign else matters…

It’s strainge to me…