A New Week

It’s been 10 days since I “Officially” started my diet. Though my eating habits have changed slowly over the past 3 or 4 years. If I were to tell you four years ago, how I used to eat, you’d be surprised I was only the size I am… and not much MUCH larger.

I first started changing my lifestyle when I decided I wanted another baby. Then I continued when I was finally pregnant. I cut out all caffeine, and the junk foods… After I gave birth, I kept at it until I finally stopped nursing. By then, a few small habits crept back into my life. I wasn’t avoiding caffeine anymore, I wasn’t really “watching” what I ate… and I defiantly wasn’t listening to my body. I didn’t drink a ton of water either.

I decided last year to stop drinking soda, and to eat better, and exercise. I beat myself up for 4 months, every single day. I didn’t lose a pound. I wanted to lose like 100 by my 30th birthday. That came and went now… I didn’t lose or gain any weight last year. The numbers never changed.

My doctor decided it was time to step in, and here is the reason today is day ten of my new diet.

I haven’t changed much, except eating a big breakfast, tiny dinner, and drinking more water. Actually, I think that’s the only thing I have had to drink for the past week. I know I haven’t had a soda in 12 or 13 days. I’m sure my body is going through withdraws from that…

I won’t step onto a scale again until February 7th, no matter how I feel, I just don’t want to do it. My “favorite” jeans were falling off of me last week, so I had to “retire” them for another, smaller pair. I can’t say any LBS have been lost, But I can say, something has changed.

I have started to read more about PCOS again. I need to know, for me, what to expect. I couldn’t fathom what it meant by “mood swings” until this past weekend when I experienced them. OMG! I need to rein myself in! I can’t live my life the way I used to.

I can’t let myself eat when I’m not feeling HUNGRY. I can’t eat junk just because I want to. I need to start walking, then eventually jogging and running. I want to be more active. I need to keep drinking water, not sugary drinks.

I know I have many things I need to work on. Right now, I’m working on my health in general. I need to lose weight so I can get control over my body. Control over my moods. Stop the pain.

Eventually, I will be the skinny girl I once was, but with the attitude, confidence, and knowledge I have now. I want to shed the extra pounds I put on when I was in a bad time in my life. I want to release the past, and move toward a better future for myself and my family.

It’s a new week, and I think I know what might happen again during the week.

One day at a time, I will succeed.