I will be coming home

I am surprised that OD is back. I wish I had known when it first relaunched. I would have been back sooner. So many things have happened since 2014. That’s 11 years!
I don’t know where to start. That “just friends” I was always worried about? Yeah, he left me for her during one of his relapses. That was my final straw. He had reached that decision January 2023, but didn’t officially choose to leave with her until August when he acted in such a way that there was no possible way for me to sweep it under the rug anymore.  That’s where I stopped pleading.
he ran away with her Aug 2023.
By that point, I had a ton of other things happen. We had another son. He stole my pain meds, and broke my trust. My brother died and he was not there for me at all… it was just one thing after another… after she left him he called me crying and heartbroken… of course I consoled him. But I didn’t take him back.

my mother died, he made it back to the funeral. I still didn’t take him back. He told me if I was going to live with him, I had to be in a relationship with him. Which turned our broken relationship into one of domestic abuse. I filed divorce papers the day after he threatened me. By April 2024, we were officially divorced.

I lived with him, planning my escape for a year, and when an apartment opened, I jumped. I’ve been here about 11 months. I fucking love it! My life is so much better! I wake up every day thinking I’m in a dream. I look back and wonder how I could have lived like that for so long.

I wrote and published a book! I have full custody of my youngest. The teenager chooses to live with his dad. I wish I could have him more often.

I also joined a kink lifestyle almost 2 years ago. I kinda left the monogamous lifestyle for one of free love and open doors. It’s been quite interesting. I no longer go by the name I use here. I don’t mind using it here but I’ll be signing it with my new name.

I have this amazing guy in my life, we can’t label our relationship. It’s a non monogamous relationship, he’s my friend and really fucking hot.  Like I don’t know how I could have found someone who is emotionally mature, physically attractive, and we are just so complimentary to each other.

he says “we’re the same, but different.”

I love him, and I have yet to tell him how I feel. I just tell him everything I love about him. “I love that you remember the little things. I love that you call me out on my bs. I love being wrapped in your arms. I love when you let me objectify you.” The list goes on… it’s been going since late October 2024.
He knows why I left Marc. He sees the man paying penance for his actions even though I have no anger towards him. He reached the point in 2023, where I just let go. I was fighting for the kids for years. I had given up on him for me a long time ago.
when he missed our 3rd wedding anniversary for the floozy and a bottle, I had enough and decided to put myself first. I started to reach out to hot men that I felt were way out of my league.
And yet, Dan is here and he’s this amazing man that I never thought really existed. He’s the star of romcoms and my life has become every good part of those movies.

I sing and dance doing dishes, he sneaks up behind me, catches my rhythm and joins me. He randomly brings me home wild flowers when he works out at the park. He pushes me to be healthier because I WANT TO BE! And I’m still allowed to have a little slip.

I am seriously falling in love with this man.
~Lilly~