I hate this.

So his parents left, and I get an e-mail saying “hi, they’re gone, and so I’m going to Berlin tomorrow, and then directly to Cairo, so I’ll be gone for 10 days.”

Does he do this on purpose? I mean, is he trying to make me unhappy? Because if he is, it’s working. Just because I’m far away doesn’t mean that I’m no longer important does it? Why is this so different from being a few miles away? Why is the only communication I get telling me that I’m not going to get to hear from him at all for a week and a half? I have so many problems right now, and I don’t need this to be another one of them. I have to juggle school work, studying finals comming up, theatre work, dancing, dental work, and a chance I might need physical theorapy for my knee. I reallie wish I didn’t have to worrie about him too. I mean this is one time that I’ve reallie needed him. I’m going through alot, I mean it might not be a big deal for someone else, but I never had to do this before, and I’m getting reallie upset about it. I just reallie need him now, and all I get from him is “feel better.” What the hell is that? All he could manage to say to his girlfriend of over a year is feel better? Not even I miss you and I love you and I’m sorrie we haven’t been able to talk heres my excuse. No. Just feel better, I’m leaving now. I need to hear I miss you and I wish I could be with you to help you because I know you’re having a bad time, but no. I’m just so sad all the time, I can’t deal with it. And I know he comes home in 4 and a half weeks, but that doesn’t help me. I barely get any recognition that he even remembers me, and when I do, it’s like he doesn’t miss me at all, and he doesn’t care that I’m hurting. I just want to go home and sit in my room and never come out. Why is something so simple to me and so hard for him? All I reallie need is to know that he loves me and misses me and reallie truly wants me to get better and be happie, and “feel better” doesn’t reallie cut it for me. I just want this to all be over.