What’s wrong with me?

Why am I so scared to talk to Julien about this whole thing? I’m so scared that he’s going to tell me that he reallie doesn’t love me the same, and he’s going to mean it and I will see it in his eyes. I just can’t ask him, I can’t do it, I love him too much. I’d rather not know, and believe that he still loves me like I love him than reallie truly have to believe that he doesn’t. It makes me cry just to think about it. I don’t want this to be happening. It’s been almost a week, and I am still holding on for dear life. I can’t believe that it’s reallie over.

I very sorries.. but I really know what you mean.. (not like when people just say that to make you feel better.. i been there, done that, and it sucked ass.. ) but I still love you!!! You should come visit sometime, we can go into MY city and do fun stuff!! 🙂 XOXO

*sigh* this probably wont help, but this is my out look on the whole ‘dating situation’ thing. If its over…I’m not gonna try and patch things up. It’s different in every situation, but I figure that I’m not gonna kill myself thinking “oh, what can I do to make them love me again?” because if they dont…they dont. Sorry, boo. write me and tell me how you’re doing Its not easy, I k