My head is spinning

Have you ever had a secret? One that eats away at your insides, and tears you up? One that you half wish that someone would discover and you could talk about it, and half dread it because it is a secret for a reason? It sucks, and I don’t want to talk about it, but I do. And I want to scream it out, and get it off my chest, but I don’t want to tell it. I hate this. It is such a burden, and I don’t want to bear it, but I do. I had a secret before, and I remember how I felt when it got out, and the lies that ensued, and the people that I hurt and that hurt me, and I don’t want that. So I won’t tell. But I know how I feel now, and it is much better than if I had kept it bottled up. So maybe I will tell. But I can’t. I can’t say it, not to anyone. And it has been so long, and I have kept it away, and I don’t think anyone knows my little secret, but I can’t. I can’t keep it anymore. But I can’t tell it! And it’s not that I won’t tell, I just can’t. And, it’s not that I don’t want to keep it secret forever, but I can’t. I am so conflicted, and my head is spinning, and I just want someone to know. I want someone to find me out. I want to be liberated, but I can’t do it myself. I just want a break. That is all.

I know the feeling far, far too well.

You can always tell me anything if you need to, but if you can’t I’ll still be there for you and understand that some things are just too difficult to say. *hug* -The Sun in the Sky

I know I haven’t updated or really been around latey. But I am always ALWAYS here for you if you need me! ~*~Connie~*~

My name is Sam…You should just tell someone. You obviously have people in your life that you trust enough with the information otherwise you wouldn’t be talking about it hoping that someone would find out. I think if it’s eating you up that badly then just sit someone down and tell them; don’t wait for to figure you out or for them to nag you until you vent. You’ll feel better, I promise.

weirddani

June 6, 2003

I’d have to agree with sam. You know you have friends that you can trust…and you dont have to tell everyone, just tell one person if that would make you feel better…but this has obviously festered to an unhealthy point. Let it out before it explodes inside of you. Loves, Dani