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i figured out why i wasn’t so thrilled about my grandparents coming to visit. every time they are here my dad is even more cruel to me. it’s like he just finds anything he can to pick on me about or upset me with. i tried to talk to him about it and all he did was laugh in my face. he doesn’t take my feelings seriously and that really hurts. he always wonders why i am mean to him. everytime i am nice he hurts my feelings and betrays my trust. whenever he is like this i think about how sometimes my mom will compare me to him. i do not think i am like him at all. i respect other’s feelings. my grandparents probably think i am a spoiled girl for talking back to my dad. all i am is honest about how i feel. if that is called spoiled, then so be it. this thanksgiving break has sucked. all i did was spend it feeling rejected and crying. this friday is my campus visit to canton. i have to decide if i want to go there or not before i visit delhi because they need my decision by december 5th and i am visiting delhi on the 14th. i have no clue which one i am going to choose yet. it makes it harder since i can’t even visit delhi before choosing.