please forgive me.

this is my 3rd diary on here, the second of which, previous’s diary was my longest, and most influential;.. perhaps life hits me again, and i have things changing, friends moving away, and just life in general is about to change, thus i return to writing, something that helps me. i do not know how long this will last, or what will be found. for last time was amazing.

i met her. my close friend whom i’ve never seen face-to-face. and i stayed friends with her even when i shut this down, until i did the wrong thing. until i messed up.

for i am very pensive, and though thoughtful, i often decide on writing those words i really shouldn’t write, say the things that should be left unsaid, or send the e-mail that should remain unsent. and logic or good reasonings might convince me otherwise, in retrospect i see my over reaction, and for the sake of beauty between us, the God-given love we’ve shared doesn’t seem worth the waste – i say to you, 

please, forgive me.