8/26/05

hey everyone.

yesterday was decent.

it was my moms bday.

courtney and i watched the OC.

then she left.

talked to krissy.

got ready.

showered.

hill came and got me.

we went to the football game.

saw pretty much a lot of ppl.

i missed all them.

then after the game hill slept over.

we talked.

went to bed.

woke up.

she just left.

and now im sitting here

I can’t stand to think about a heart so big it hurts like hell
Oh my god I gave my best but for three whole years to end like this
Well do you want to fall apart? I can’t stop if you cant start
Do you want to fall apart? I could if you can try to fix what I’ve undone
Cause I hate what I’ve become
You know me, oh you think you do you just don’t seem to see
I’ve been waiting all this time to be, something I can’t define
So let’s cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I’ve just got to get myself over me
I could stand to do without, all the people I have left behind
What’s the point in going around when it’s a straight line baby, a straight line down
So let’s make a list of who we need and we’ll throw it away
‘Cause we don’t need anyone, no we don’t need anyone
And I hate what I’ve become.
You know the night life is just not for me
‘Cause all you really need are a few good friends
I don’t want to go out and be on my own,
You know they started something I can’t stand
You leave for the city,
Well count me out
‘Cause all this time is wasted on everything I’ve done