Recent Entries

• For Letting Go

  January 26, 2014

  Wow ...it's official. This place is dying. When? Very soon but still unknown. It hurts. I won't lie. I love this place even though I have been writing on Prosebox when the words needed release & this place was busy with it's many outages. This place holds so many memories, not only of my jour...

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• For Comfort

  January 20, 2014

  My heart is breaking tonight. As long as I can remember I've always run to my music when I'm hurting this much. I can't do that tonight. I couldn't even listen to anything on my way home from work. Music has never been this painful for me. It's scary. No, I don't want to write about…

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• For Growing Up

  January 16, 2014

  Tequila taught me a lesson ...twice! Haha! It's not what you think. Well, the first time it was.  I used to drink way too much as a teen. When you combine lots of tequila with an I don't give a fuck attitude it isn't pretty. I did a lot of ugly things when I was…

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• For What I will Remember

  December 1, 2013

  My baby boy is turning 19 yrs old on the 12th of this month. How is it that I've forgotten a lot the last 10 years but I remember the night of his birth like it happened just last night?   I've heard people say that a woman forgets the pain of childbirth, that the…

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• For My Smile

  November 29, 2013

   I drank a lot last night. There were moments through the night as I poured shot after shot that I told myself that I should stop but I kept pouring nonetheless. When the room wouldn't stop swaying I knew I was in trouble. I know I'm drinking for emotional reasons & I know that's a…

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• For Prosebox

  November 16, 2013

  I'm writing about a very sensitive subject over there. Mostly because it's easier to write there. I mean that in a physical sense. My phone doesn't like this lay out very much. If the font is too small & there are no paragraphs, I apologize because I did try. I'm not abandoning this place. I'...

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• For Warmth

  November 9, 2013

   Love has always meant pain for me.    Even the very first people I loved caused me a lot of pain. My father left & gave his love to a new family. I didn't understand why. I can remember visiting his new home after not seeing him for 4 years. I resented all the happy…

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• For Tequila

  October 24, 2013

  In about 60 minutes when I clock-out for the day, I've had one plan that I've been anxiously awaiting to begin. I plan on getting drunk. I bought me a nice big bottle of tequila. I've got a nice array of lemons & limes to accompany the many shots that will be had when I…

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• For P!nk & My Baby Sister

  October 15, 2013

  I've been waiting since April for Sunday night. Writing that sentence made me suddenly realize that if I'd actually gone through with taking my life a few weeks ago then my seats might've been empty that night. Why that didn't occur to me when I was feeling so lost? ...

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