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Dew

July 1, 2013
Terence of course stills exists to me, it's not, as sad for me as it was before, half a year is enough time to see some reality again, I'm a bit reclusive at the moment, very, reclusive, but it's okay I think, most people have become used to me disappearing for a few months each…
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  • Magh Mell
    June 25, 2013
    It's peculiar to think that you can know you're going to die, but never know that you've died. Terence never realised he had died. I think back a bit about the way things were between us during his last few weeks, I was very angry with him, I still am when I remember it, you…
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  • Self
    June 22, 2013
    Time changes values a lot I guess. Today I wonder what Terence did, when his father died, I never asked him that, I knew, inherently, because of how much I valued Terence, that the loss was terrible, his tacit rejection of being written out of the will because of his actions with Leslie was terri...
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  • Old Man
    May 30, 2013
    I saw an end in something else recently, but I didn't finish it, it's still a draft, it needs to be refined, you can only leave something when you've finished it properly, which is why we carry so much with us, so many things unfinished and evident with weight, another thought, another memory. I ...
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  • Tapping
    May 22, 2013
    Robyn said she doesn't listen to music anymore, not new music, she doesn't search it out, I've noticed the same for myself this year, a few, small lucky finds but nothing like what I should be. I watch Shawshank Redemption and I wonder what Terence was thinking when he watched it, which parts he ...
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  • Pointless
    May 8, 2013
    I haven't written much lately, haven't thought to, I guess that means I'm doing well, that I'm involved with the world enough that I don't need to write down what I can to see how I am today. Brent is, important, to me lately, he's the one I feel I can rely on, which is…
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  • I Love You
    April 21, 2013
    Today is Terence's birthday, or, would have been, I'm not sure if you keep on counting, are you talking about how long you've lived or how long you've existed? I'm not sure. It's Earth Day too, which is nice, I'm glad Terence was buried, circle of life and all that, he'll grow the grass, fee...
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  • Review
    April 21, 2013
    I feel good this week, I guess that's how you notice you didn't feel it before. Terence seems to slip away a bit, to my comfort and my sadness, because it's awful to forget, but that's what is happening, I'm not surprised at his absence anymore, this has become reality, it's no longer surreal. I&...
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  • The Prophet’s Task
    April 15, 2013
    I feel good this week, I guess that's how you notice you didn't feel it before. Terence seems to slip away a bit, to my comfort and my sadness, because it's awful to forget, but that's what is happening, I'm not surprised at his absence anymore, this has become reality, it's no longer surreal. I&...
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  • Home
    April 8, 2013
    To begin, I am god. Tomorrow, things will be different, thus ends the prophet's task. I, am adapting to this new life without Terence, I think, what I find most daunting about it is that it's not like he's going away to come back, it's a forever thing, and it means the further along I…
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