Recent Entries

• How can you be so ill-equipt to deal with life?

  September 10, 2013

  I don't have time to write, but i just wanted to write the title so i don't forget it. Gotta get ready to teach middle schoolers. Take care, friends.

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• Belize

  August 8, 2013

   I am attempting to post an entry from my iPod, so forgive any strange misspellings. As it is, I am writing this from my nice air conditioned apt/hotel on the island of Caye Caulker, in Belize.   It's my second full day and I am working on getting used to the tropical climes. Today is&h...

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• Up and Down w/ next day edit

  May 14, 2013

  That's how things have been, up and down. Kevin and i have been going to counseling, which is one thing i stipulated when i said i would give our relationship a chance. The counseling is very helpful, as he has some personal issues stemming from a past abusive relationship and dealing with the re...

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• No one wants to be called stupid

  May 5, 2013

  I do not like being called stupid. I do not deserve it. What is wrong with someone who thinks this is ok, especially when its within a relationship. I am actually embarassed to even say this, mortified that here i am in a relationship... living with someone, in love with someone... who called me ...

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• 05/02/2013

  May 1, 2013

  Occationally i like to re-read entries from around the same date, but in past years. May 1, 2008 i had just come back from Ireland and was jet lagged. I very clearly stated on thing, without reserve. My trip to Ireland made me realize i most definitely wanted to have children. How old was i…

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• Heavy/Happy

  April 30, 2013

  I have a heavy weight on my heart. I am going to spend some time thinking about the things i love and the priorities in my life, perhaps that will lift some of the darkness. I love good food and friends to share it with. Making meals with friends and loved ones gives me an…

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• I own these words.

  March 27, 2013

  I have a lot of different thoughts racing through my head, maybe this will just start out as a list. I tried to leave a note on a diary i read and found myself performing some of my self doubt magic. Sometimes i find my words may come across as hollow, misunderstood. While i know…

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• RIP Grandma

  March 1, 2013

  I am in Concord, Ca (east Bay area) for my grandmother's memorial. She was 94 when she passed a week ago today. What an amazing woman, a true matriarch.  While this is sad, i am also happy to get out to see family. Plus, i really like the Bay area. I am going to take…

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• RIP Grandma

  March 1, 2013

  I am in Concord, Ca (east Bay area) for my grandmother's memorial. She was 94 when she passed a week ago today. What an amazing woman, a true matriarch.  While this is sad, i am also happy to get out to see family. Plus, i really like the Bay area. I am going to take…

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