My name is Barbie, I am turning 40 this year, I started this 8 years ago to help open up over stressful situations. its now become just a place to get my shit out.

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  • Chapter 2
    July 28, 2025
    It was almost a week before Brittany wrote me back. I felt bad for upsetting her; I honestly didn’t think about the photos when I posted them. Later, I learned she wasn’t only ignoring me, but Trinity and the others as well. When I got to my hotel room in Albany, I finally saw her…
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  • Chapter 1
    July 28, 2025
    I was excited to go out with my friends, as it was the first Friday night we all had off in months. With our road schedules, live events, and overseas trips, it was nice to sit with my work buddies and enjoy some drinks and music. As Sydney approached the table, she asked, “Who’s creating…
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  • Tell Her You Love Her.
    July 28, 2025
    So this is the second half of Brittany and Pam's Story. Tell Her You Love Her is Pam's Side of everything. Enjoy and give me your feed back.
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  • Update
    July 28, 2025
    Since I had some good feedback on Never til Now, I have decided to do the same with Tell her you love her and post it chapter by chapter. Thank you to all who read it, and gave me such positive feedback.. You don't know how much that meant to me. I love you all.
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  • Reference page
    July 28, 2025
    Character Information- Pam Martinez- Bayley Dostrap Demi Adams-Rhea Ripley Victoria Gonzalez-Raquel Rodrigez Ashley Alfaro-Shotzi Blackhart Stephanie Vaquer Trinity Fatu-Naomi Sydney Zmrzel-Maxine Dupree Aoife Cusack-Lyra Valkyria Elizabeth Kesar- Scarlett Thea Trinidad-Zelina Vega Mercedes Varad...
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  • Epilogue
    July 28, 2025
    Epilogue- 12 months later: Over the next several months, Pam’s hope faded. After setbacks, they turned to IVF with an unknown donor. Brittany carried Pam’s egg. Each sunrise brought quiet dreams of their new life. Those early months passed with hope and anxiety. Then, about a year into this final...
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  • Chapter 13-Never Til Now
    July 19, 2025
    18 months later: I stood in the sunroom, colorful leaves outside. Nicole entered, handing me a box. "Mama said to give you this," she said. I gave her something to take back. "Thanks. Will you bring this to Mama? Are the girls almost done with photos?" I asked. "Yeah, Aunt Tori’s coming. Are you ...
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  • Chapter 12-Hocus Pocus
    July 18, 2025
    I woke with my face against Pam's back. I started to move and realized my face was sticking to her back. "No, you can't get up yet; it's the one morning that I don't have to rush off." She said, rolling quickly, pulling me into her arms. "I didn't realize that you enjoy golden showers?"…
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  • Chapter 11-Family
    July 16, 2025
    One Saturday morning, I woke up to an empty bed, and the house was quiet. I walked downstairs to notice that Pam's Jeep was gone, and then I found the note. "I took the girls out for a few hours, we will be back before Lunch, enjoy the quiet. Love- Pam." Later that morning, I…
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