I am 52 years old, I have family, a Wife and Children, I have Bipolar 2 and CFS and a few other medical conditions. I had to give up therapy because my therapist wasn't touching the subjects needed, so I decided a Diary was the best option.

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Marriage The Beginning

August 25, 2025
I have been married twice before, yet I've only recently realized that marriage is actually only the beginning of a relationship. It's the time to show the world your love, but it is the time to stop being selfish and start being committed. Previously I'd taken responsibility yet with this relati...
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Recent Entries

  • Connecting with your inner child
    August 25, 2025
    Why bother, for me my inner child was always in trouble, abused and damn right upset the whole time, people keep saying I should re-connect but Why would I want to bring back all the negatives, there were no positives.   I hear people say well what would little Marcus do? well Little Marcus,...
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  • More Psychology Drama
    August 17, 2025
    So I saw both the Psychiatrist and the CPN this week, what did I learn? For the many years I haven't been getting support for my AuDHD because the Occupational Therapist that diagnosed passed the paperwork to my General Practitioner (Doctor), Who sat on the information and did nothing, so my CPN ...
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  • Another week
    August 9, 2025
    Had an interview, didn't get the job, but I am kind of Glad I didn't too. The week has been full of more arguments about my Mental Health. Well next week I have the Consultants maybe he can help, I hope so as my Marriage is to important to me to throw away.
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  • T.T.S.N.B
    August 1, 2025
    The things that should not be! Waking in Pain, Waking from nightmares, Waking from cramps Waking on the wrong side of the bed.   We say these as though we can control them, which we cannot, we can no more control our dreams than we can control the things that have already happened, Dreams sp...
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  • Trying to understand Bipolar and other conditions
    July 30, 2025
    Well it started out with bipolar episode, (unmedicated at the time) Lots of small clusters of irrational behaviour manic/depressed/manic/depressed/normal and all over the place. Eventually I got diagnosed with it, however I now am wondering Prior to April this year, I've always had not only an on...
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  • Lets win the lotto
    July 28, 2025
    I've noticed that every single post I post here I have to delete comments about MRX the spellcaster and his magickal lottery wins. If MRX was so accurate why does he sell this service, simply because its a scam, his friend has a Nigerian gold farm too.
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  • The State of the World, the state of the microcosm
    July 28, 2025
    The state of the USA, I don't understand why there isn't open civil war there yet, all that is going on is INSANE, ICE knocking down doors and deporting people from their homes to camps Police Shooting people and gassing them, because they choose to use free speech. Politicians changing the law t...
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  • Into the internal minefield
    July 27, 2025
    Being Neurodivergent isn't like being normal, I wish I could just simply get up and do the things that normal people do, don't get me wrong I am not moaning about this but trying to explain for people that do not understand. On the average day one thing can happen that turns the ND person…
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