Recent Entries

• I worry

  July 27, 2025

  And often wonder, what would people remember if one of these fantastic chronic illnesses of mine actually managed to kill me tomorrow. I don’t have a significant other. My daughter is only 7. My work friends would know about the work things, but almost no one else would. Ash and Ashley would know...

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• Quietly contemplative

  July 25, 2025

  Sleep Token is my new musical obsession. It makes me feel all the things - awakening something I thought dead, but apparently just sleeping. Like Q. She surprisingly also likes Sleep Token. But still leans more toward 4 non blonds and Chappell Roan. We’ve spent some extra time together this week ...

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• The Wold is on Fire, and I am Angry

  February 5, 2025

  What. The. Fuuuuuuuuuuuck. also, POTS flares suck

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• Starting books late at night

  January 29, 2025

  Then in finish them..when I have to be up in 4 hours. I am wide awake. Tomorrow is going to be rough,  it worth it. I’m excited to get back to writing. I should have been doing this all along. Just finished Nero by S.J. Tilly mildly triggering, so amazing. Will read again. Now I…

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• My timing is impeccable

  June 15, 2023

  Right person, wrong time. Right thing, wrong thing. I have to let him go and I don’t want to. I love him. I love all of him and have loved him for what seems like always. But he doesn’t feel the same. Doesn’t want to feel the same. And Rabbit is her own cloud of…

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• It doesn’t matter if I love you

  February 25, 2023

  Because I do. But I’m learning to love me more. I want you to love me just as much. But I have already learned this painful lesson the hard way. You’re showing me how little I matter so I will continue to love you As I learn to let you go

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• Shhh. It’s a secret

  January 26, 2023

  I’m trying to be good. But I don’t think I actually mean it. I already regret the time I’ve lost with him. I don’t think it will change how I feel anyway or make it any worse if I do sleep with him. I want to tease him so bad,.. there’s one thing he can…

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• Say the thing

  January 8, 2023

  Life is so short and precious. I just want to tell you i love you

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• Not just tonight

  September 23, 2022

  I miss you But this isn’t a new feeling The loss of you Something I wear every day Today, it’s just a little heavier than the day before

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