Recent Entries

• Merry Christmas

  December 25, 2013

  Happy holidays you guys! Sorry, I haven't been on here much. Prosebox is so much easier, less glitches and I can post from my phone. Mae_Only. Not that this place isn't still sentimental. :( How were all of your holidays? Mine was pretty good, I got to see Avery! She's such a wonderful baby....

  Continue Reading...

• 2 Years

  November 18, 2013

  Friday marks two years since I've seen my mother. A bit more so since I got to hear her voice. I don't like this. I'd give up anything, do anything, to get one more hug. Just see her, feel her, talk to her, hear her voice for just a few minutes.

  Continue Reading...

• Path

  November 11, 2013

  I am turning 25 in a month and a half, and I'm stuck in a career/office I can't stand for much longer. This place and these people are toxic. But finding what I want to do with my life changes every time I breathe. How do I figure out where I want to go and…

  Continue Reading...

• Sweet Home Chicago

  October 27, 2013

  I've moved! I'm officially a city resident. :) Saying goodbye the family house is really hard. I'll write more later, hopefully post some pictures of my new space. Thanks for hanging in there with me guys.

  Continue Reading...

• First Breath of Hope

  October 14, 2013

  Hey guys! I hope you missed me. The real me, not the insanely, borderline needs to be committed depressed me. Something happened yesterday. I was talking to my middle Chris (from the hotel), and we were talking about how my exs always come back and say I love you, despite me not seeing them or&he...

  Continue Reading...

• Falling Faster

  September 30, 2013

  He has a girlfriend. I want to die. I just want this to end.

  Continue Reading...

• Two Months

  September 29, 2013

  Two months ago tonight...I shattered. I remember when Florida Chris left. I remember the panic, the fear of being alone, of having every part of me rejected, ignored, forgotten. I compare it to when this Chris left, and I almost laugh. The first time, it was all about my insecurities, my day drea...

  Continue Reading...

• Well then

  September 23, 2013

  Lol...I guess I should only write selfishly. My vent about someone I care about went unremarked. Hmmm. Well...it's beautiful outside. The house sold. We have to move out by the 31st of October. FML. I don't know where I'm going. I keep dreaming. A huge part of me wants to run after him, to tell&h...

  Continue Reading...

• Pray

  September 19, 2013

  Please say a prayer, cross your fingers, make a wish, whatever it is you do. Pray either than some sick bastard gets a karmic mauling, or that five children and their mother find strength beyond this world. Today, someone I love very dearly heard a verdict of 'not guilty' against her ex husb...

  Continue Reading...