Recent Entries

• “Clock strikes twelve, it’s all over after”

  May 11, 2025

  I am an enabler. My most recent experience in love has completely warped my sense of peace. I’m so conflicted. I told myself I was done—how could I not be? The lack of intimacy alone was reason enough. But if I’m truly done… then why am I still thinking about it? Why am I drawing…

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• Cause I know that they get scared when I’m left alone

  May 9, 2025

  “I’m in love with the man you’ll never become.” That line resonates with me more than I’d like to admit. I’ve fallen in love with men’s potential over and over again. Sometimes, they did reach it — just never with me. The truth is, I wouldn’t even know how to love someone who wasn’t at…

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• When all I remember is talking is cheap and your lies were expensive

  May 3, 2025

  Lately I've had too much time to think. I start work again 05/12, I'm going to a concert with my daughter tomorrow and my birthday is this week as well. So many things to look forward to, yet I feel hopeless and isolated. I've isolated myself of course, that's just what I do when the…

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• I got the point that I should leave you alone but we both know that I’m not that strong.

  April 25, 2025

  To compare my love to hers isn’t fair. It only makes me feel like everything I gave you was insignificant, and that what I offered paled in comparison to what you became for her. I was kind and patient. I stayed quiet, accepting only what you gave because I believed that was all I deserved.…

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• I gave you everything that I couldn’t afford to lose

  April 18, 2025

  For the first time—perhaps ever—I am unburdened by anyone else’s expectations. In the past seven months, nearly every aspect of my life has changed. After years of stability and predictability, everything unraveled. Depending on how you view it, the rug was either pulled out from under me or, as ...

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