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02/24/2013

February 23, 2013
In the past five years I've only told Mike I loved him once, and I was drunk when I did. Last night I finally decided I would tell him I loved him. But, he ended up having this girl with him and leaving before I could talk to him. I sent him a text joking that…
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  • 02/13/2013
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  • 02/02/2013
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  • 12/26/2012
    December 25, 2012
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  • 12/14/2012
    December 13, 2012
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  • 12/01/2012
    November 30, 2012
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  • 11/29/2012
    November 28, 2012
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    November 22, 2012
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