Recent Entries

• The End is Nigh

  February 1, 2014

  I can't believe that Open Diary is no longer going to exist.  It  could not have come at a more horrible time in my life.  I do cherish this site, although I no longer update as much as I used to.  It feels like it is a part of me.  All of my thoughts, trials, a...

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• Wednesdays Are More Than Just Hump Day

  January 21, 2014

  I just want to say this site... is really pissing me off today!  I have been trying to read other diaries but for some reason it takes at least 3 minutes or more of waiting to pull up an entry, and now I just wrote half of my entry and it was mysteriously deleted while I ...

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• Wednesdays Are More Than Just Hump Day

  January 21, 2014

  Fuck open diary... this is my third attempt at this entry and it's not saving...

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• Mom Left Today

  January 20, 2014

  I just got back from the airport.  I had to drop my mom off.  I didn't have a panic attack this time.  She stayed 5 days more than she was supposed to and we went through my house and cleared all the clutter out.  I mean we tackled every room, every closet, even the ...

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• Hoping for relief

  January 14, 2014

   I'm not sure what started the anxiety tonight.  It could be that it's my Mom's last day here tomorrow, that I spoke to my shrink today and it brought up old things that I am now thinking about again, or just the simple fact that I had 2 cups of coffee and a cigarette right…

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• Hoping for relief

  January 14, 2014

   I'm not sure what started the anxiety tonight.  It could be that it's my Mom's last day here tomorrow, that I spoke to my shrink today and it brought up old things that I am now thinking about again, or just the simple fact that I had 2 cups of coffee and a cigarette right…

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• 01/11/2014

  January 10, 2014

  So, a lot has happened since I last wrote.  I suffered panic attacks almost throughout he entire month of December.  I was told I have Anxiety and was prescribed Xanax.  I wasn't really told about the side effects or how hard his medication is to come down off of or withdrawl from,...

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• How Life Has Changed…

  October 22, 2013

   Wow, so since my last entry, I've had my daughter, and she is beautiful, named her Avalynn!  A little spoiled and bratty at times, but I blame grandma.  She watched her for the first two years of her life and hardly ever heard the word no.  I've also had a son since then too!...

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• Lots Of Catching Up To Do

  November 27, 2010

  Well, Heather did move away to North Carolina... I do miss her A LOT!!! More than I can express in words, but we talk just about every day. About two weeks before she left I found out I was pregnant, and still am for that matter. : ) That was in June I believe, and…

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