It was October 1998. I was surfing the web looking for interesting sites, and Netscape 'What's New' featured the Open Diary. The idea intrigued me. I started this diary on October 22, 1998 from the middle of the prairie in Kansas. I've been here from the beginning.

For long years I worked out the wrinkles and ripples in my life and documented it here. Heartaches and happiness created the canvas on which I painted the story of my life for total strangers, some becoming friends, and I grew as a result.

I now live on the edge of the Pacific Ocean, at the mouth of the Columbia River between Washington and Oregon. I've fallen in love with David and married him in 2018. We are exquisitely happy. We have a great little dog named Trixie. The kids are good. I have NEVER been happier.

I credit much of my evolution to this interaction. When I was in struggle and chaos, this site allowed me to talk it out with myself. Gain insights from others who have lived something like it. The internet is a tool. It can be used for good or bad. This site, this experience, this effort has been nothing but good for me and mine.

Life is golden. We are grateful.

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01/27/2014

January 26, 2014
Goodbye everyone. Thank you so much for reading and writing with me for these 16+ years.I am a kinder and more loving person because of you. I am a better human.I will miss you and wonder about you. If you wonder about me - I'll be just fine.:) I love you. Thanks for caring. Don't…
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