Recent Entries

• Pandemic Notes

  April 11, 2020

  Every night, each evening a group of people in Seattle yell, scream, blow a whistle and hit their car horn at 8:00PM, for the social benefit and well-being of medical staff and workers and doctors and nurses. Tonight I hear strange sounds and noises outside my door, in the hallway beyond my home....

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• Blink of An Eye

  April 9, 2020

  A new world has arrived on earth, with the Coronavirus destroying activity in public life and leaving barely enough time for food and a boring movie from California. People have decided revolution and social good are more important than saying a word or applying for a job. Everywhere has shit the...

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• Neuroscience

  March 27, 2020

  I’m a medical school applicant for Pediatric Neurology and surgery. Part of my dissertation has to do with understanding psychology and thinking differently with recognition of thought. Emotions and depression are much different and often related. The former a brain process, with chemicals, the l...

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• Deep Sadness

  March 26, 2020

  Each second, every day and hours and hours I feel more despair and sadness, hopelessness and failure, living here in Seattle, WA. Two or three jobs and I can share a house with a group of strangers, hide in a bedroom and pray as if the world could end at any time. Go outside once…

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• Confidence

  March 21, 2020

  Seeing some of my old, confusing and often strange entries from nine years or so ago, I got some updated insight about confidence from Mind-Society, with different political ideologies offering their own descriptions and requirements. And I slowly had a breakthrough with Capital Hill and Seattle,...

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• Capital Hill, Seattle

  March 20, 2020

  Slow internet, nowhere to volunteer and help, no money for toothpaste and capital hill, Seattle going about their revolutionary lives as usual, having group conversations on sidewalks, with higher and sweeter ladies voices and deeper, bearded men’s voices. Life really has gotten to be a simulatio...

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• Coronavirus, March 19th

  March 20, 2020

  A long time ago, there were places to visit, energy and speed from focus and concentration. Now. Thug gangsters with backpack full of rap music drugs and relentless drug users, leaving trash and sewage on Pacific Northwest land. No more ice cream trucks. No more free speech. No more goals and dre...

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• Staring Backwards

  March 19, 2020

  Looking back, now, has to do with a sophisticated consciousness, Hitler himself engineered, most likely, in the same bunker he used to slaughter, destroy and rid evil from his vile servants, uploaded onto every communication option, downloaded across internet systems and called China and Russia a...

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• Then and Now

  March 19, 2020

  After seventeen years after I moved to Washington State with my sister, I’m recovered from a skull based chordoma tumor and cancer treatment, living on a small budget, stuck, surrounded by people who do drugs, hate planet  earth and the world and locked up in an apartment with nowhere to visit, n...

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