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reality sets in

July 2, 2020
i nearly died today... one of my fellow forklift drivers came out of nowhere and almost punctured my skull with one of his forks... we were sent to get a drug screen... i have no emergency contacts... wife dead... parents dead... siblings dead to me... no one to contact if something goes wrong......
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