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• gods gonna cut you down

  January 21, 2021

  i have walked in labored step... 31,536,000 seconds in a row... taking the slings... taking the arrows... cursing my eyes til my vision narrows... to the finest of points and blackest of nights... masticated... wrapped in the joy of sorrow... i make homes of the graves i've lost... i can walk for...

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• wish you were here

  January 20, 2021

  its snowing... i am tired... i went to work and pretended as best i could... on breaks i stood in the falling snow... i tried to remember her voice... tried to remember her smile... to remember anything... the drive home was quiet... hershal sat in my lap until it was time for him to go…

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• out of season

  January 19, 2021

  6 hours to go... i have no will to sleep... has it been a year already... feels more like 20... my terrible year begins again... i find it odd that she made me hate her for so long... and now i would give my eternal soul to spend one more day...

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• aint no grave

  January 18, 2021

  the snow falls quiet... evaporating when it touches anything... the blue grass i play takes me back to the first home i remember... a string in my heart is plucked by memories of better days... no matter how much i have in this world... all anyone can ask for is someone to cry at their…

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• long and winding road

  January 16, 2021

  i used to be pretty once

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• reptile

  January 13, 2021

  i walk thru this thing called life... my burden drags behind me... chains forged in days... chains forged in night... deeds, hopes, dreams... all iron boxes pulled along as plowshares... each step more mechanical than the next... each sunrise weathers a once proud visage... each rain renews the r...

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• famous linal scene

  January 13, 2021

  i work... i come home... i set and hug hershal... i go to bed... i watch the ceiling until my eyes close... lather rinse repeat... 6 days to go until the end of MY year... i loved her... i hated her... i miss her... i want nothing more than for her to leave me alone...…

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• ghost of christmas future

  January 5, 2021

  i look so forward to the 19th... that is sarcasm... she died on the 19th... no apology... no atonement... just left me behind again... no closing the wound... just constant bleeding... bleeding me dry...

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• father and son

  January 1, 2021

  37 minutes into the new year... nothing has changed... i stood staring into the flat, grey, dimly lit night sky... the secret parts of me wishing and hoping that when i turned, someone, anyone would be there... so i turned... i could feel the disappointment run thru my body like a slow cold soup....

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