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• songs sung blue

  January 23, 2019

  i buckled and took her to her surgery... she was scared and talkative, thats how you know she is scared... she told me things i didnt want to know... she talked about the latest guy... she told me she was seeing a shrink about her fear of commitment... and as they came to take her…

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• owner of a lonely heart

  January 20, 2019

  i ran into her today... i was out shopping and she was there... she tried to talk to me... she goes in for surgery on Wednesday, Bo does nothing more than lay around and pout... she said she was sorry and she misses me... i hate her for that... she asked if i would take…

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• times like these

  January 18, 2019

  ten year challenge and toxic masculinity all rolled up in one. I was tortured by bullies and my father through the first 18 years of my life.never needed a coloring book or play doe to make my life better. been cheated on for 32 years and i still worked to put food on the table…

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• feels like the first time

  January 16, 2019

  i know that none of us get out alive... laying here the hotel room my mind turns to home... he's forever on my mind... i cant wait to get home again...

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• i am loathe to do this

  January 10, 2019

  WITH THE DISCLAIMER THEY CAN USE MY WORK FOR OWN WISHES I OFFER THIS AS A MORATORIUM FOR MY JASPER: i wrote this years ago, for him Jasper's First Christmas   I will begin our tale in the time honored tradition of, “Once upon a time”. For all truly wonderful stories do happen only once…

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• working in a coal mine

  January 8, 2019

  i hate sleeping in hotels... its just not easy to do... the new job pays great... but i miss Jasper and not being home...  

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• somewhere thats green

  January 4, 2019

  with his prednizone he will live another 4 months... after that i will have him cremated so he can come home with me... On June 3rd, his birthday, i will take him to a park where we would play and sprinkle him there... somewhere thats green for his final resting place...

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• suddenly seymour

  January 3, 2019

  there has been so much going on in the last year... there has been so much loss and pain... so many nights spent looking at the ceiling as night faded to day... the plain truth of it is, if i had been a nicer person, she would not have cheated on me... i never made…

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• Doctor My Eyes

  January 1, 2019

  i know its not the smart thing to do, but as i am recovering from my surgery and have no means of supporting myself for another handful of weeks, i am bringing my son home to me... i made him a promise that i would never leave him and for a time i sent him…

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