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Vertigo

June 13, 2024
What a day, in the morning had a vertigo. Felt like shit and didn't know what to do as I was alone outside. Far from work and home Didn't also want people to worry or burden anyone, I tried to overcome it. Managed to get to office to rest. Thank you for attending to me…
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