Recent Entries

• It’s been a while

  September 29, 2025

  Hey. I'm still here, still miserable and ugly. I haven't felt like writing for a while, stuff is just so heavy. I feel like it's crushing my ribcage. My child is self harming. I'm not sure if that's the right words for it but suppose it is? They stims when he's happy or anxious and…

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• Going forward

  August 22, 2025

  I have such a headache. Again, I seem to have an awful headache every day at the moment. Pretty sure stress is causing it. I can hardly stay awake today. So I thought. Let's stare at a screen, type a load of my muddled thoughts out and make my headache worse. Maybe it'll finish me…

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• Rollercoaster

  August 4, 2025

  It's August. It's not as hot anymore thank fuck. My emotions have been all over the place. I'm starting to think my bipolar is getting worse, maybe my tablets aren't working anymore? Maybe I should ask to up them but then they'll make me even more tired, being tired only makes me frustrated and m...

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• Connection

  July 21, 2025

  Since I forgot what day I'm on (There's a long gap between each entry) I'm just gonna start with random titles. Not that anyone reads these. Things have been....weird. Thats the best way to describe it. The sudden want to talk to me, from cosmic soul. We message every day now. I mean dont get&hel...

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• Day who knows at this point

  July 14, 2025

  I think I need to change the titles to each day. My memory is shocking that apparently I can't even remember single digits now. This last week and weekend have been like a nail in my head. I feel like a awful mother. My temper is at the edge all the time and I'm snapping…

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• Day what ever

  July 11, 2025

  Day six....seven? Who knows It's another bloody heat wave. It's the UK! We don't do heat, our country gonna explode in a firey blaze. Boom! This week has been hard, a friend was giving me a hard time about something trivial. Told them to calm the fuck down or we won't be friends anymore. Cba…

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• Day five

  July 7, 2025

  So last one I thought was day Three. But it was actually day four. So this should be day five.....should be! Ok so an interesting development about cosmic soul. Normally like I've said they're kinda blase. I'm not sure I've spelt that right. I've googled it in but if I can't spell it how am…

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• Day…whatever

  July 3, 2025

  I thought we were on day three. But honestly can't remember, I'm also so bad with technology I can't find where the old posts are. I'm tragic in so many ways lol. So the depression eased up a bit. Not completely, I can feel it's easy to slip back. But I'm not in a very…

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• Day Three

  June 27, 2025

  Day Three Its hot again and so muggy. When did I move to the center of the sun? Yesterday was just as warm, the back of my knees were sweating like what the fuck. How is that even a thing? Yesterday my dad popped over and I cried. Finally cried after trying to cry for…

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