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• Berry

  October 20, 2025

  I am not sorry for disappearing.  I'm not sorry for deleting everything. You always had a way to get in touch with me.  It is not my fault you did not use a different way other than social media to contact me.  How is it you want me so bad that you just let me…

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• Good Morning Handsome

  October 20, 2025

  I miss all the blank left on read empty texts.  I miss all the silence and feeling like I've said something wrong.  I miss asking you all those questions and never getting a reply or an opinion back on them.  I miss asking you how your day was and you telling me nothing.  I miss…

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• ugh why

  July 27, 2024

  He finally gets a day off and instead of planning the day with me its everything else.  I'm a lil tired of being second best.  I'm tired of asking his grown ass kids to do their part in this.  So now the cabin is for sale as is and that includes what ever stuff is…

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• Old Me, New View Ch. 6

  July 9, 2024

  When I was about four years old, I asked my dad if I could have my own room.  Only problem with that was it needed to be built.  I got it eventually cause my daddy built it.  Pawpaw and Pain helped.  Like most kids I was scared to sleep in my new room alone, so…

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• Old Me, New View Ch. 7

  July 8, 2024

  By then we all knew it wouldn't be much longer before little brother would come into this already chaotic world.  January 1994, Welcome home little brother.  I was able to go to the hospital and have some Taco Bell with momma while waiting on the arrival of little brother.  Daddy bought a chocola...

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• Old ME, New View Ch. 5

  July 7, 2024

  When I was three years old Santa Clause came to the house to visit me.  He gave me all kinds of gifts.  I remember a baby doll and stickers.  The stickers were my favorite.  My daddy was at work as usual.  I remember it all being filmed as the whole thing went on.  I can…

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• Old Me, New View Ch 4

  July 7, 2024

  I vaguely remember the incident when I was only two years old.  The part of this I do remember is Pawpaw decided to come inside the house with a rifle.  I don't know if it was loaded or not, go ask my dad, because he ran out his bedroom charging at my grandpa in the…

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• Old Me, New View Amanda’s Version. 

  July 7, 2024

  I've thought long and hard on the title of my book.  I want something that says me.  Old Me, New View Amanda's Version.  That's the title... I think it speaks for itself.

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• Ch 3 (finally)

  July 1, 2024

  At about six months old, my mother accused my dad and her mom of an affair.  I never would have remembered that at that age.  Just like everything else, it's all hearsay to me, not just crazy.  It went like this, Mawmaw handed me off to my dad and my dad supposedly brushed against my…

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