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• Caution and Excitement

  January 3, 2025

  Well, it finally happened... Recently, my sister asked my mom if she wanted to join her for breakfast with an old friend of hers.  My mom and I were together and she asked me if I wanted to go.  I thought about it for a moment, and the idea started to excite me the more…

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• Words as Weapons

  December 27, 2024

  How much of our lives are spent searching for the right words?  How often do we find them? The tricky thing about words is that we can use them to offer help, convey feelings and desires, and have them completely miss the mark because the target does not hear intent, but hears something tainted b...

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• My God Hath Been My Support

  December 6, 2024

  Faith warning, this entry is filled with a lot of things based on a belief system and scriptural examples.  This is my inspiration for today. My life is a miracle. I don't mean in the way that every life is a miracle.  Each day, I can look back and see a pattern where God has…

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• Madness Indeed

  November 1, 2024

  Well, I did it; I splurged.  That's not unusual in and of itself; I recently bought an ultrawide gaming monitor that might never get used for gaming, but I splurged on concert tickets BIG TIME.  I bought "Meet and Greet" tickets. I've always considered myself somewhat practical.  I do go on small...

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• The Wrong Way

  October 29, 2024

  Let me tell you a story. Once, there was this kid who, got into an accident and couldn't come to school.... Once more with less plagiarism.  Once there was a boy.  He became increasingly interested in drugs, but he knew there were dangers to many drugs, the guy in the uniform said so right after&...

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• Making Amends

  October 28, 2024

  I sent my ex-girlfriend some money. I'm not sure why.  I mean, I have an idea, but I'm not sure exactly. We haven't spoken in many years.  To hear her tell it, she has been in a mentally abusive and controlling relationship with someone who controlled who she could speak to and to some extent&hel...

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• Reflections

  October 27, 2024

  It's weird to look at a diary I tried to create 13 years ago, especially when I look at who I was...and who I am. I laugh inwardly as I type this trying to use correct punctuation, as if that will have any bearing on what I write here.  I even looked up the word…

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• This Life

  July 4, 2012

  Maybe taking on a roommate was a bad idea. I don't know. I've lived by myself for more than a year now, and the privacy was almost intoxicating, and at times, lonely. I don't think this does anything to cure my loneliness, I've never been all that good at opening up to men, especially men…

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• Can I Right Past Wrongs?

  December 24, 2011

  So here I am, sitting in my car on Christmas day, wondering how to get away from myself. Recently, I discovered my ex girlfriend is getting a divorce. We initially starting dating when I was 15. Fifteen years ago, and my heart still skips a beat when I see her picture. The last time we…

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