Recent Entries

• the madness/broken open

  November 1, 2025

  comin in hot... lol it's been 2 months since i've written. a lot has changed. i think i'm gonna start an insta that will be private and will be about my life. like a true. honest. look at my life. in photos and videos. and everything.   i started it. it's private. it's @jenniferlynnryals. an...

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• joe joe joe

  August 25, 2025

  so. joe is passive-aggressive and joe is childish. and here we are. i've been here a month and 2 weeks and it gets weirder and weirder by the day. everything was going kinda halfway fine, but then he starts getting pushy about hugs, and time, and this and that. i'll finish this later. i gotta&hel...

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• no more drama

  August 16, 2025

  i need to stop. i'm gonna vent in here about this and then i'm gonna stop giving any energy to it. every time i allow her to creep into my brain in some way, it causes me stress. i need to document this at least. she texted me yesterday or today (i can't remember) saying…

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• july 2023

  July 16, 2023

  this is the only place i have to write my real thoughts. I've been battling myself lately. adia was just here at chris's. idk if she's still here. I don't know what else to write. I'm trying a number of things online to start making money off chatgpt. it was just made available to the…

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• at a strange crossroads

  June 12, 2023

  i was honest with my mom about p and what's been going on. she said she would help me pay my rent if it came down to it. she wouldn't want me to stay in a situation that sucks with someone controlling me.   I'm gonna have to finish this later. i haven't finished work…

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• grass is greener syndrome

  May 16, 2023

  things are temporarily ok with me and P. I guess I feel like I'm on the edge of having a nervous breakdown lately. I was super worried about my medical health for so long. and I was concerned for my mental health then also. but now it seems the Lexapro has helped with my anxiety.…

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• privacy

  April 27, 2023

  so... this is really the only place I can go to vent and tell the truth. she finds and reads my written journal. and if I tell my friends or mom or whatever,...I could. but it's getting old. I have no privacy. ..and I really don't like to involve other people in disputes with my…

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• paradoxes are impressive

  April 4, 2023

  so I think I have my old job back. I was basically answering phones and listening people talk about why they're unhappy. I'd write a report and send it to the proper locations....which, btw, sometimes sent it back to us claiming they had no clue what was going on. So I'm not completely sure where...

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• second lap

  March 15, 2023

  idk why I'm even doing this. I need an outlet. and I miss OD. my gf gets upset when I leave the house and argues with me for however long about it. every. time. I leave. and I haven't been leaving the house for months. I really hate it. and gets sus about the seat…

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