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• flirting is like the flame in a campfire

  May 20, 2025

  Each morning I choose a different way I create, serve, and drink my coffee. Today I made a pot of espresso, warmed up a splash of milk to heat up so high in the microwave it almost spills over - I guess to boiling point, take out my handheld frother that has been weak and…

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• Re-live Life

  May 18, 2025

  I'm not sure if I wrote about it in here, or in my personal hand-written journal, but I remember thinking yesterday about going to buy a book, and learn to re-live life. Kind of like getting inspired again. We (I can only speak about my generation), used to look at magazines - possibly monthly, d...

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• I just miss the way Logic used to Feel.

  May 17, 2025

  Yet another day looking into the past. The past of what was, and more deeply into the what could have "been"s. They never talk about how grieving a loss of what could be can turn into anger more stronger than the grief of what was. Because you can at least one day look back to…

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• The uncontrollables.

  May 15, 2025

  Day 1 of knowing what I want. I woke up to my dog having a panic episode at 5:45am, which I then was unable to go back to sleep and started my day unhappy, grumpy, and annoyed by 7ish am. Started my day not by choice, but by alarm and realized that if given the…

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• What do you specialize in?

  May 14, 2025

  There's a deadline approaching, for the ...possible me? For the past few days I have been contemplating if I should complete the process of redoing my CDA. and then my Director's. For my CDA, I would have to work/volunteer with a school or some sort of agency that will allow me to be there for&he...

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• Consumption – Humans & the Full Circle Movement

  March 24, 2025

  Consumption. Why do we consume? We all consume. We consume because we are meant to consume. As humans, we consume for many different types of reasons, and therefore we consume in many different types of ways. Some might say that we consume because it keeps us alive, and keeps us going. We consume...

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• Visions of Envisions

  February 27, 2025

  Last night I had a dream, that reality came crashing a little too hard. And all the thoughts of what if and what could happen, in the least favorable way did come up, in this dream. I believe we were in school again, yet we were this age, this all these life experiences behind us,…

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• Hope, is just the opening act for desire.

  February 26, 2025

  I have been disconnected with the desire for life. And the more that I think about it, the more that I try to connect with it and try to understand it. And I question myself, "What am I desiring now anyway?" I've been thinking about how we desire. There are things that we desire that…

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• Your difference.

  February 11, 2025

  I've turned off all the sound and electrical devices that make noise, except the soft humming sound from the room's fan. So the only thing I can hear are my own thoughts again. I spoke to a past coworker today, and he said his wife had an emergent organ surgery caused by her own lifestyle…

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