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• My day on the 27th

  December 27, 2023

  I woke up around 3:17 am/4:40/5:20/7:40 and then at 9:27 am I could not sleep well. My husband was home, and our dog was ok...later I kept talking to my husband about me not being with him physically and emotionally that hes all alone. It hurts cuz im there anytime he needs me, at least…

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• My day today Dec/26/2023 I write at random.

  December 26, 2023

  Today I woke up around 9:40 am. I had another nightmare but I woke up and started to talk to myself and argue with myself. It's ok I've done that for a long time. When I see things they ask so many questions and I answer. But anyway, today is after Christmas. We didn't do…

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• My 9th. day of writing my toughts

  December 24, 2023

  Today I woke up around 3:25 am I had another nightmare. I couldn't go back to sleep so I was tossing back and forth just thinking and thinking about how to forget my dream. My cat kept coming on top of me and that made me feel good. My husband was asleep in the other…

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• My day 8th evening

  December 23, 2023

  I've been up since 3:10 am. now is 9:32 pm I woke up with nightmares as usual. My day was ok. I made beans chicken mole a Hispanic dish made with natural herbs. I was thinking about cutting my wrist and fighting my demons, but my new friend stopped me [my dog.] My husband was…

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• Myday 8th

  December 23, 2023

  Today I woke up around 3:10 am shaking and I even peed myself. I dreamed of my ex-husband beating me up when that happened I would hide in the closet. When he came home from work, I would tell if he had a good day or bad. It was most of the time bad and…

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• My day 7

  December 22, 2023

  today I woke up around 10 am. My cat wakes me up most of the time three times at night/midnight and starting the day. She likes to get on top of me. it's funny. When I woke up my husband was home already so he cleaned my cat's litter, I cooked.. we ate. I was…

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• My day 5

  December 19, 2023

  My days are going so fast. I wake up and when you less notice it evening already. My day was the same as yesterday at least in the morning. I wake up clean the litter/feed my cats and make sure my dog is ok. I couldn't sleep very well, I kept having nightmares and waking…

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• My day 4

  December 16, 2023

  today I woke up around 12:45 pm. I went to sleep around 5:15 am or so... My husband was talking to his best friend when I woke up. I cleaned the dishes/cleaned the litter and made the beds. I was glad that I was ok. Later on, hours later, I and my husband went to…

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• my day 3

  December 14, 2023

  I woke up twice again.. around 3;20 and 5:10 am from yet another nightmare it looks like even though I take my meds they are not stopping, but I thank God I'm still here. I have a roof, food, family, and my pets who are my life support. But there are times that I give…

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