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• Take me to zero

  April 5, 2021

  “What an amazing turn of events!” I love the universe. Synchronicities are so powerful. Tuesday was the day, nearly three weeks ago. There were so many signs indicating it was the right time, today was the day. It did not go, at all, how I had planned. Shocking. I knew he would be hurt. But...I&h...

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• The end of the beginning

  March 13, 2021

  Sometimes, typically during a new moon, I stare at the sky and feel so fucking small and insignificant. I stare and intently ask the stars how I am expected to reach them when there’s so much distance between us. What I’ve been slowly learning is that I’m not expected to reach them at all because...

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• So come and take this chance

  February 28, 2021

  With me tonight, yeah. Don’t say goodbye with words still left to say. 🎵 Well, apparently, one week really is too much to ask for. Flashback. I spent a lot of time, and I suppose I still do somewhat, reposting copious quotes to my story on Instagram.  Quotes about knowing your self-worth, having ...

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• Here I go again on my own

  February 6, 2021

  Sometimes I wonder if I truly know who I am. I’ve been trying to visualize my life when Squish has drifted off to live her own life apart from me. I can clearly see where I live, my home, my things, how I feel when I wake up in the morning, but I can’t see…

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• And then she remembered

  January 30, 2021

       I am so incredibly blessed to have such amazingly supportive friends. I say it all the time:  you don’t need a lot of friends, just the right ones. This week has been amazing. I’m getting stronger in my strength training. I have more control in my movements. I feel different in my thoughts a...

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• I just want back in your head

  January 28, 2021

  What a freaking week. I survived yet another birthday. Shocking, I know, and let me tell you, I narrowly escaped the bush this go. I worked on my birthday, which I normally don’t do. Not because I don’t think I should have to because it’s a magical time to celebrate the day my mom essentially&hel...

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• Sleep with me tonight

  January 18, 2021

  Deep with me tonight 🎵🎶 I moved all of my work stuff into our office. I need the separation. I was originally in the office, then moved to the living room so I could be in the middle of everything. Now that I lay it out that way, it doesn’t sound like a good idea…

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• All free for you to draw

  January 12, 2021

  Welp, I guess this is going to be my captain’s log for a while. Might even be fitting, if one wished to consider it a while. I had originally intended to use a physical journal. There’s something so magical about putting pen to paper. That’s where problems are solved, you know. Not the only place...

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• Life’s full of tough choices, innit?

  January 10, 2021

  “I don’t know what to do with this.” ”Hang it somewhere.” ”I don’t want to hang it. I don’t like it.” ”Then throw it away.” ”How do you do that?” In 2019, we did a department team building event at one of those paint while you drink places. I’m fairly certain it was just an…

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