sorry…
I am alive.
I’m just tired.
Lots of things going on, too tired to get into them.
I’m “happy” for now, too happy. Thus, I don’t want to write about it because it will simply usher in the obvious hell that always waits ever so quietly until i say “i can’t believe how good things are going” and then KABLAMO POUNCE A RAMA!!!!!! it jumps on my precious fragile joy and rips it to shreds.
so… uhhh… alive, but just sorta weary of being too…. open with things. I know this is my diary and I can write whatever I want, but seriously, I don’t even want to remember this right now for fear that later on it won’t be so good and I’ll have to feel like a fool and retract everything I’ve said.
Sorry I’ve been away so long. I just feel very lost and… misplaced with my diary right now. I don’t trust the foundation of my life right now and it feels like I write things in stone here only to have to destroy the stone when reality strikes.
ugh.
but i’m breathing and my children are doing good.
so… at least there is that.
I miss you all though.
I wish I wasn’t so damn tired…. (and you know it’s bad when freakin Barney is on and I don’t care enough to change the channel and save my childrens impressionable minds!!!!)
I am so happy you are okay, I miss your ass. It’s so luscious.
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so glad to hear you are ok! thanks for the update. (((HUGGLES)))
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Just glad to hear you are okay.
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*HUGS*
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As long as you’re happy, that’s the important thing.
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We’ve missed you, glad your ok <3 Annie-Rae
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I love you, girl!
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Yayyyy for updating! I’m relieved that you’re safe and doing okay. Yayyy for happiness in your life right now. Treasure it for as long as it lasts! =)
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I am glad you updated. *hugs*
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no dont think that everyone can change their mind about things! I am sssssoooooooo glad you are back, i really missed you. dont forget us, i need my daily chaos fix.
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It’s so good to hear from you!!! :Hugs:
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I’m glad you guys are all ok đŸ™‚
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I’m glad you’re doing okay, but I miss you!!
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oh sweetie! I miss you! đŸ™‚ but i understand… đŸ™‚
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It’s nice to see you alive.
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It’s good to hear from you. Take care.
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Welcome back. đŸ™‚
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Good to see you’re still going well. Take care, and enjoy the crests of the waves without feeling too bad about the dips. That’s just how life works đŸ™‚
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I had a very bad dream about you the other night so I’m relieved that you’re all right. *massive huggles* Take your time. Come back when you’re ready. *more hugs* ~
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so glad to hear something from you!
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*HUGS* SOOOO glad you updated and you’re still alive. =)
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I’m glad you updated!
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Try the Wiggles, two of the guys are hot and so thats fun for the WHOLE family, not just the kids!!
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*hug* sometimes that’s all we really need you know we’re all here when you come back đŸ™‚ and PS *pinch, pinch* đŸ™‚
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glad you are back!
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I was wondering about you! Its ok, as long as your doing well I’m happy đŸ™‚ Just don’t forget to remind us of this every once in a while!
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Glad to hear everything’s ok!
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*hugs* I’ve felt that way about my diary recently…like I write something in it and therefore it’s bound to come undone because I got so damn excited. Wtf? 0_o
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so glad you’re still breathing. keep it up. *grins* *big hugs*
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It’s funny how we ODers all get so attached to each other simply through words and pictures. We were all so worried about you, and we don’t even really know you! đŸ™‚ Glad you’re back , if only fleetingly, and that life hasn’t yet stolen your breath away. Take care of yourself and your boys, okay? *hugs*
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I’ve been wondering about you. Glad to know that at least you are okay. Sorry you don’t want to write…I understand though. Take care of yourself.
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jeez, it’s been a while. hope yer doin’ okay.
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glad to hear you’re alive and ok. *hugs*
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Hi! I have seen ya around, and finally got around to your diary! LOL Well I will tell ya girlie.. you and I have something in common! ORLI BLOOM BABY!!!!!! WOOOOOO hot somebody right there! *drool*
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oh btw.. check this out for your drooooooooling pleasure http://www.theorlandobloomfiles.com
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monique, i don’t know if it matters to you or not but i will seriously pray for you. i know that you feel like God is picking on you right now but i think He is just trying to teach you or carlos a lesson somewhere. everything happens for a reason and most of the time something good comes out of something bad..so just hang in there. prayers really help situations. God bless. love ya!
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Scooby Doo Where are You?????
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stay happy and don’t let nothing take that away.
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glad you’re doing ok!
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my god- i’m away from od for awhile and i come back and realize i haven’t read you in FOREVER and you’re married. yipe!!!! ok, reading back now.
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Well I hope things keep going well for you! I totally understand the rut you are in though as far as your diary! I felt the same way for a while! Good luck with everything!!! Shayla Rae ~:)
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*hugs* thinking of you.
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