07. college fresh year

I realize that all you think I do is cry anymore... and, well, that's not far from the truth. Nevertheless, it isn't... it's just a good excuse for me to write.Friday was rough, but Saturday and Sunday seemed to just kind of flow as usual. I adjust rather quickly to change, despite the fact that&...

And so dreamergrrl moves back home. Where spring is happening for a second time, and it is once again tulip season.The campus has been left behind, and I will never again be a resident in my dorm, never again live with that community of people. I come home to parents and cars, peers that are…

Yes, I know you're all shocked and amazed that you're getting an entry from me so soon after the last one, but, eh, I figured I might as well. Actually I'm in Chris' room, where he, Jeff, and I are watching hockey... Anaheim vs. Dallas. (go Mighty Ducks... and yes, I have become a hockey…

Red, puffy skin, tear stained with useless, stupid, stupid tears. Dry-mouthed, knowing how all the water in your system has been used up. Eyes aching, corners burning, nose preoccupied... sniffling. And I hate myself for all of it. I hate myself for crying.Why am I crying? Don't ask me, because I...

I've gotten a lot of complaints as of late about my lack of entries. *coughALEXcoughAARONcough* Now, I'm about to apologize, but first I would like to say that I wrote an 800th entry well over a week ago, that refused to save several times. I have since gotten a new hard drive and managed to…

-winks-Yeah yeah yeah, I know I haven't written in a week... I know I haven't read in almost that long... I know I'm slacking off and not keeping anyone updated, let alone letting myself down in the process... but that happens.My computer keeps dying, no joke. I keep getting these Kernal Stack In...

So that last entry... yeah nevermind.-grins-11 month dry spell is over. Welcome to springtime in college.

I talked to Chris B. today. I told him I thought we should just be friends, which he was totally cool with. (But reitterated the fact that if I changed my mind I needed to let him know?) At any rate, Meg definitely slapped some sense into me today on our way to CSA. Yeah,…

And it's dream time once again. That happens... you know... dreamergrrl and all... -wink-But really I'm not going to go into a whole lot of detail, because I honestly don't remember it that well. I do know that Chris B. appeared in the dream again... don’t so much remember who else. OOOH yes I do...

I resent that. I resent that you're calling me a person "in general who didnt pay for much themselves, instead they had other people chip in for them." Yeah, maybe I've never held a job... maybe I've never in that respect really paid for anything with money that was mine in the literal sense. But...