2006

2007.  It's funny when you think back at how you saw yourself in the future, how completely different it turns out.  I will be 27 this year.  27!!!!  That scares me.  But here I am dating a girl who is 29, almost 30, and I can relate to her.  I still see myself as a kid…

Well, I have met a girl. Her name is Kelly.  We have been seeing each other for about 2 weeks now.  She is shy, and I like her giddyness.  She is also smart but shy... so it is hard to get her to open up.  She is a geek... but I have always like the geek. …

The blank page.  What to write?  Where to begin?  If you were to be deaf or blind, which would you be?  I think both are pretty horrible and I don't know if I could choose.  Let's start with being blind.   If I was to be blind, I wouldn't be able to play soccer, one of…

15 minutes after last entry... Comfortably numb by Pink Floyd just came on. This always takes me back to a moment, which I proabably have documented in a journal from way back. It almost brought tears to my eyes let me share. Christmas time, 2001. I'm at the Loblaws Christmas party, (earlier in t...

I had a really weird dream last night, but at the same time it was kind of a wakeup call for me. I was at work, I was on the night shift again.  Everything seemed cool, some guy then called me up on my cell phone asking if I was still interested in this position at…

I feel better compared to my last entry, but something still feels off.  I think I miss having a girl around.  Sure I live with Kim, but she isn't my GF... it would be nice if she was though, cause I really like her, and I honestly could see us togeather for a long time.  …

Still feel like crap.  I'm having trouble eating, everything just grosses me out.  I called in sick twice this week... I just couldn't face the world.  What the hell is wrong with me?  I don' thave energy because I am not eating right, and all I want to do is sleep.  I have sat around…

I haven't been feeling too hot lately.  I don't want to say "depresed" because that is an extreme.  Let's just say I don't feel very good and I don't really know why. I usually compensate by drinking.  Not excessively... or well I guess at times, but I mean mostly it would be like 2 pints on…

Wow.  I just broke down in tears there... first time I have cried in a good 6 months.  I was sitting at home alone, listening to tunes and playing bass guitar along to the tune playing.  I have been feeling kind of lonely lately, like nobody really wants to be around me.  I feel I…

I'm in a routine now.  Working 9 - 5:30 everyday... going home, chatting with Kim or going to play soccer.  My skills have improved.  The leagues I am in just aren't challenging anymore, although last game I couldn't score if I tried... I had the chances, just couldn't put the ball in the net.  I...