2011

I know I promised updating.  I have yet to have any real "me time" to do it.  Between the new .... boyfriend?  it still feels weird to say that.  Ok, well between the new boyfriend, the friends, the family, and the job...I've been dying.  Holidays.  They al...

I'm in a relationship again.  I'm not sure how, I'm not sure what happened exactly but...yeah. Smack me? I am terrified this will end badly. I'm hoping it doesn't. All that I've ever known or experienced tells me to not bother but I am. I feel like a complete idiot for trying again. I feel&h...

I met someone. I don't know how I feel about the whole situation yet.  My friends have met him.  They either like him or are waiting to know more about him.  I like him.  I don't like that I like him.  This is the point in time when I need all of my friends to…

 I have to write or I'm liable to get in my car and do something very fucking stupid. Isaac is home.  He was at Grady's tonight.  No acknowledgement, nothing.  I started shaking and feeling nauseous.  I had to hide in the bathroom for a few minutes to make sure I didn't a...

Not that kind of encounter, still holding to the celibacy/single vow.  Much to my friends' ...reticence? They are still trying to set me up on dates...I just smile and nod and (again) shoot down all the potentials.  So far I've managed to honestly shoot down all but 2 I think and there ...

I don't know why I felt like putting that as my title, but I did. Yesterday (and today) have kind of been productivity fails, to the epic degree.  I went to class, did some test work, got some calculus help then went to lunch.  Had planned on spending a few hours after lunch hanging out...

 So I promised a 'happy' update so here it is. So I've mentioned my friend Kelsy before in an entry or 2.  She plays harp and fiddle/violin and sings and sings/speaks Gaelic (spoken not as much because she's way out of practice).  Well she invited me out Friday night to see her pla...

 "You're a good soldier, choosing your battles" I didn't choose my battles today very well.  Don't get me wrong, I did a lot today considering.   Depression sucks the most because it leaves you so...drained.  I'm tired all the time but then I don't sleep.  I lay...

I'm ... well I'm alive.  I can't say much more than that. I'm trying to post more often.  To what end I'm not sure, only hoping that maybe regaining this part of my 'normalcy' might rekindle the rest of it.  It ran away apparently and didn't even tell me goodbye. Typical. I cleaned...

I didn't go to belly-dancing on Monday.  2 reasons.  1, I needed the money that would have been the class entrance fee for gas.  The 'extra' money in my paycheck went to Christmas presents.  I'm okay with that, I just really need to start paying more attention to this kind of ...