After-Steve Breakup

Ok, computer is fucked...this is the third time I have written this, so I'm going to make it really short... I dont' know who left those notes on my last entry, but I can't help you out if I don't know who that person is! Please leave me a note and let me know!!

This is Ben. He was one of my favourite horses at the ranch. I just found out last night that he passed away Easter morning. My boss (ex boss) Joanie found him laying in the field. I'll finish the rest of this entry later.

Wow, that was NOT cool at ALL!!! I do'nt know who sent me this, but I have never been so scared from a freaking picture before!!! I almost fell out of my chair!     Some random noter left a private note on my diary saying to check out a link, so I did. Not knowing…

     I had a lot of lectures today. I went to all of them, even the one that was cancelled lol. I felt like an idiot when I walked in and there was a whole bunch of ppl from the other lecture. I think I made it worse tho because I tried to make it…

     I was in a place that was just like the ranch. Instead of it being cheerful, happy and sunny, it was really dark. There were lots of people there. I didn't know any of them in real life, but in the dream, I knew everyone.      At one point I had to tak...

Alright, so I know the whole thing with Justin happened super fast, but what else could I do? He's so adorable and hot. And he freaking hunted me down! I told myself I would stop with all that stuff, but he came to me...it wasn't like i was looking for it. And he was being…

     Well, I think that was a waste of four months. I really shouldn't have given him that second chance...never make someone your priority when you are only their option.      I had a talk with one of the guys I randomly made out with on new year's. W...

     So Ryan really did come back yesterday lol. He was here for awhile and I purposely kept him waiting when I had class. I told him that I would finish class at six, but I spent 2 hours studying for my tree test that I had today so I didn't get back until 8…

     So I have been thinking about this whole Ryan thing a lot. I know I shouldn't, but I have. I can't really help it. I have realized that the only way this can ever work is if I blindly trust him. I'm not sure if he's worth it. But I have this feeling, and…