Chapter 1

Well...I am spending another night at work. What else is new!! Its not so bad though, most of the rooms were rented before I got here and now I only have a few reservations and 13 regular rooms to rent. Not too bad, I hope I get them rented soon so all I have to…

My mom called me last night at work to tell me we have a strange Christmas admirer. I guess as she was walking into the house with grocerys two Christmas cards fell to the floor. However she didn't notice them until after she set the bags down and went to shut the front door. She…

So I had this great talk with my friend Ben. Actually he is my ex, but we've made better friends.  This Christmas we'll have known eachother quite awhile. I was 13, nearly 14 and he was 16..nearly 17. I am now 19 and he 22. Out of all of my friends I have known him…

You know.. I read other people's diaries and some..most..are just silly ramblings about absolutely nothing...but then I'll come accross some one's diary...and they have these profound thoughts...or interesting lives..or interesting stories..they are intriguing...and its not just ONE of their entr...

Ok so I am at work, it's a little slow. I think people are wanting to sleep in today since its Sunday. Working at a hotel is a little interesting sometimes. the people you meet are so different. My favorite people are the cute little old people who are just so sweet, and so friendly,…

1. How old were you when you lost your virginity?      I was 18 and 11 months.   2. How many people have you had sex with?      Just one...But I am fine with that.   3. How many times a week do you have sex?     Well when he's not h...

So I have made several mentions of my father's suicide. Mostly through poems/proses and just general ramblings. I haven't really addressed the issue since it happened back in August. I don't know why I have been hiding from it when it is so foremost in my mind. I can't forget it, its there, haunt...

Ahhhhhhhhhhh why is Christmas soooooo expensive? Its just my mom that I really have to buy for but, I don't have any money. By the time I pay my bills and pay for gas to get to and from home, school, work and back home I have no $$$$. So yesterday I tried to put…

Well its been nearly two or three months since I have last heard from my "best" friend. It has been really diffult to keep myself from picking up the phone and calling. But she still has made no effort. And I am tired of being the one who always calls..or makes plans to do something. Half&he...

WATER COLOR MEMORIES BY HANNA P I can’t paint you a portrait, of myself. nor can I draw, sculpt or design, the fleshy shell that looks so much like me. Because the true self portraits, are buried thoughts and images. Too deep for anyone to really see. How do you show the love and hurt,…