Manic Me

I'm slightly frustrated that my psych didn't want to change my medications. I've not been on them since spring started and have been enjoying my hypomania. But he wants me to go back on them and he upped my lexapro. Which is fine but hello I would like to crave things.. while I don't mind…

I know I don't write here often anymore but I don't have a place to express how I feel safely other than here.  So I'm here. Friend of mine who has been with his gf for 10 years (only married last fall) they are breaking up.  With out divorce they and not living apart they are...

<RANT> I hate you. I don't even know who you are but today I hate you. I don't know anything about you, I have never seen you, met you, spoke to you, or heard of you in any fashion and I hate you. Perhaps your a good person, but that matters to me not today.…

My huge rant about United are still missing. Blah. So I've been having bad dreams a lot lately. World Ending type dreams. Now I know I've mentioned that I've had dreams that come true, and I cant tell that except for the extremely strong feeling I get about the dream after. So far I dont…

I finally recieved all the paper work from Value Options, the mental health care insurance company I had when I was working at Pacbell. I was reading through the notes of when I was out patient hospitalized and Im amazed at how I look from another persons percpective. Amazed isnt really the word ...

I think its a bad sign when you start having anxiety problems over good things.Yes bad problem. Not anxious like you would be over getting a new job, but like anxious enough not to want to do anything. Like the fun things I do in my life, Im having problems with my anxiety.Like the thought…

and as in the end of my last entry was cut off despite the fact I still had seven characters left to write before I stopped, proves, Im moving to this entry here.So as I was saying before, my boss whom had never had a child with M/D or had it herself she doesnt fully…

yeah, I've decided that its going to be slit wrists, more fucked up to my mom.She's such a bitch and Im tired of trying.

In more ways then one. Ive deleted all my favorites. All of them. For one main reason and he knows who he is. Im sorry for betraying your privacy.I want to write about breaking addictions tonight. There are many kind of addictions, drugs, sex, love, alcohol, gambling, the internet...This entry is...

Im so tired of hearing people tell me how obsessed Laura is about me and about Jordan. We broke up, she is glad of that Im sure, but why obsess if he's not over me or not. Today I talked to him and he told me he was, and Im taking his word for it.…