the mask of confession

I met my first client today. I had 2 other clients, but the one girl turned 18 and is no longer a part of our programs. Mentor, at the moment, only handles kids. They aren't licensed for adults (how's that work? I have no idea) so they have "lost" kids who've turned 18, and they…

I write it a lot, but what do I mean by it? "Onwards" Sometimes, it means "just keep going", whatever you're doing. If that hasn't failed yet, and seems to be "working", keep going. Onwards is sometimes an instruction to myself. When things don't look or seem right, ...

I expected today to be a bad day. I had a feeling.... But, I was wrong about what would go wrong. This morning, I opened the Email and found that I had indeed gotten a direct deposit to my checking account, a pay check from my new job. It was more than enough to pay…

 A late night last night lead to a late wake up time for me today, woken up by the phone, telling me that a place called The Mentor Network had called, and I called them right back. I have a job interview scheduled for this Wednesday at 10:30 am. It seems more than worthwhile to…

I met the woman I married when I was 19, in Southern California, in 1981. She was Japanese, passing through LA on her way to Rhode Island to go to school, and she stopped to visit her friend, a Japanese girl who I had gone to a private high school with. I was living 20…

The 15th anniversary of the car wreck I had in 1998 was April 23rd. I cannot help but think that someone somewhere has a sense of humor - bad, evil, ironic, whatever, because on April 24th, I got two letters from Social Security denying my claims for Disability and Supplemental Income. I forget w...

Things look different this morning. I must be really patient or something. She really does need someone to look after her; I guess she hasn't burned me down like all the rest of the guys. She's a real hardcore drinker. I don't drink any more, really - one every now and then, not often, and…

Someone called the police. They drove into the apartment complex where we were visiting her friend just as I was driving out, she had been that loud and obnoxious. They didn't stop me, and I didn't stop either, and I was very thankful for the GPS on my dashboard because she passed out/fell asleep...

I have been to both Hiroshima and Nagasaki in Japan. Both cities were devastated in 1945 by the new Atomic Bomb, and over a quarter million people killed, more than half of them instantly. I was born in 1962, at the height of The Cold War, which lasted from 1946 until the Soviet Union fell…

So, tonight, I'm up at Plaid, getting some cigarettes. I never smoke in my car, so I'm standing there, out front, in my MA-1 fight jacket and my sweat pants - it's late, I just pulled something on to go out, and I'm wearing my white and brown Penny Loafers, my Cuban Shoes, my biker…