The starting over stage...

I'm still hanging around.   I have been a bad ODer lately... I rarely read... I hardly never note...   But I'm here.   Have had a horrid streak of bad luck. If you follow me on FB... you know most of it. Was seeing someone, ended up not working out days after he convinced…

I wanted to let everyone know I am okay.   Been dealing with a lot of empty promises and lies, but think I have finally found someone who wont lie to me.... though I dont want to jinx myself.   I love you all. Im in a lot of pain.

I am making this public. Because, I am hoping someone has suffered the same thing, or understands where I am coming from, or might have some more insight for me.... Please, if you do, reach out to me. I need to know, esp right now more then anything, that I am not alone in this. &n...

Two more deaths this week.   That brings this weeks count to three.   This  brings the total since I was 15 yrs old, to 23. (30 if we include the miscarriages)   *sighs*    This is unnatural....

              Amanda Eckert | Create Your Badge All is well. Drs apt with the therapist on the 17th. Drs apt tomorrow for a massive sinus infection. Also have a meeting on the 17th to start talking to someone about therapy... yes.... it is needed. &nbs...

So, apparently, Im not allowed to be over my dead husband. How ironic. Which, is even funnier, in spite of the person who told me this, since she left her husband, and less then 48 hours later, had a new boyfriend. Or toy. Whatever you want to call the poor bastard. Ugh. So, Im finally…

  Today would have been 6 years, since we met. And, In June, it would be our wedding anniversay, the 23rd. 5 years. *Sighs*  May you rest in peace, Felix.... and hopefully, you have found your peace now.

Nothing like the mountians to get your mind clear, and thnking back on track. Somedays. Today was a long day. Didn’t write about my drs apt on Friday… well… because simply if you saw my facebook, you know whats going on. Went in Friday, after a long day of going getting my nai...

So, I have had to move my drs apt up from the 19th, to this Friday. Because they have made some new discoveries, on top of my already tiresome AT III.   Yay. Just what I wanted. *sighs* No wonder I am in constant pain. No wonder my feet have such bad circulation. No wonde...

And not a word has been spoken about my dissapperance. I personally am just coming up on yet another anniversary of many, one I care to forget, because it is too painful to remember, but yet, cant forget, because it had such a huge impact on my life... and yet... now, he is dead, and…