are you lonely and righteous. . .

oh goodness there is sooo much i’d like to say. . .ok ok first of all i know everybody is dying to know. . .i’m not pregnant. you’d think we’d have been relieved but we cried. i cried and it made him cry. we were just both so convinced that i was and i know its a good thing because we dont need a baby just yet. oh well. i was heartbroken saturday. oh and i had to work saturday night and i was in a bad mood ‘cuz off all that so i was working and i just happened to look up and derek walked in and his daughter was with him and his daughter was holding this huge bouquet of a dozen long stem red roses. it was the sweetest thing ever. so that made my night. i had sunday and monday off and so me and derek spend the whole time together. actually we were together the whole entire weekend except saturday night when i was working. we’re looking for a place of our own right now. hopefully i can find something this week and we can do something about it this weekend when he comes home. he’s working out of town this week again. i just dropped him off. he finally met my mom yesterday. he’s met the rest of my family but my moms been working out of town so they’ve never gotten the chance but we came over here for dinner last night and went and watched fireworks with my family and aunt and uncle and a few cousins. we act so much like we’re married its really nice. i just love having that comfort just knowing things are all right and being together. he said its like we’re married already and this will be how it is forever. marriage is just a piece of paper in his mind we already are. although we did basically plan the whole wedding thing yesterday. haha. freakin a i’m so just excited about everything. we’re moving in together. we are out of the whole ‘we’re just dating the guy buys everything’ phase. i actually went shopping and bought him new socks and underwear yesterday so he had stuff for his week away. it really is exactly like we’re married. oh and last night before we came to my parents house he went and picked out some flowers to bring my mom. she is so freakin impressed by him. she normally is hesitant about my boyfriends and last night she was like ‘he seems to treat you nice and thats what matters. you’re making me old though michelle, ‘cuz i think im really going to have to get used to this one’ well yeah mom i think so too. uggghhh im going to be so busy today. i have a ton of stuff to do after work. i need to cash my check, pick up some new umds we have on reserve, make a hair appointment, and make my car payment. i also need to send out our rsvp thing for his friends wedding. oh and go find a new case for him to take his psp and digital camera and stuff with him when he goes out of town. this whole week will be a little hectic. thats nice though it’ll make the time go by faster until i get to see derek again friday night!!!! woo hoo. oh yeah and my freakin $600 bed is almost payed off we’re going to pay the rest of it off this weekend so we have one less payment to worry about. blah i have to get going or i’ll be late for work. and i get to train someone today. goodie lets see how irritated i’ll get. ok anyway here are a few pictures of us too. oh and my gorgeous roses.