call the waaaambulance. . .i’m sad

growl growl growl growl im in a very un-great mood!!!!!!!!! i’ve gotten so used to derek being around for the last 3 weeks because he’s had 2 weeks off and one week i went with him out of town and now he’s out of town again but i cant go. he’s got at least 3 weeks like this. boo hoo. at least he comes home on the weekends though. and he makes more money this way ‘cuz when he stays home he only gets paid for 40 hours and when he’s out of town he gets 50 hours. so at least its worth it i guess. not really. i’d rather have him home. oh and our roomates have been fighting like crazy the whole weekend so im staying with my mom while derek is gone. she’s so happy. she way misses me. but i’d rather not be at our apartment because i guarantee, things will get thrown, things will be broken, there will be a lot of yelling. not something i wanna deal with while im sad and missing my boy. besides i think me and derek being around and just being all in love and mushy makes them even worse. we can all use a little vacation from each other. and my mom is glad to have me around. oh oh oh i have an interview today too. not a job im particularly in love with but its good money and the only way im taking it is if i get monday-thursday nights and have friday and saturday and sunday off. thats the only way it would be worth it to me. but im still looking for something better. i dont have to tell them if i want it for a while. they’ll keep it open for me ‘cuz they need help really bad. hmmmm what else what else oh oh oh yeah this weekend was actually pretty awesome. we dont go out a lot but this saturday we had a way fun night. we went to his friends house jake and holly, with our roomates, josh and betina, and there was another couple there too. we hung out for a bit and got bored so we left to go shoot off some fireworks and at the place we went there was a show going on so we decided to go to that. and it was getting over when we got there so we were just hanging out and derek was like introducing me to all these guys that he knows and its was way funny because most of them i’ve already met and known for a while so it was like everytime he tried to introduce me i was like yeah i already know him!! so it was kinda funny and its weird that me and derek had never met sooner. . . .anyway that was weird and fun too. so a bunch of them were talking about going to a bar and im like that sucks ‘cuz im not old enough and this one guy was all like oh no you’re going you can get in besides we’ll talk to the bartender for you so im like rock on so we all went to the bar it was pretty fun. i was excited because most of these guys i dont ever ever ever hang out with and it was awesome to hang out with brad and isaac. yay for me!!!!!!!! i got really drunk and it was fun and i didnt even get sick. . .unlike my boyfriend who was sick most of yesterday. and he was worried about me drinking a whole bottle of jagermeister. but jagermeister doesnt make me sick. only whiskey does. so i was superbly drunk, hanging out with my hottest boyfriend ever, some cool guys i know, and didnt even get sick or hungover. great night. all right well i have to go get ready and find a job. . .this sucks. and i miss derek.