d.c.b.

so ummm yeah i got a new boyfriend!!! im super excited. he’s so fun and cute, and sweet, just a-freakin-dorable. its so nice. yep. well his name is derek and he’s 25. things are going good again. didnt take me long to get over my horrible thing with sean because, well, he was crazy and its very hard to stay attatched to someone who went mental on you. meh oh well. yeah anyway derek met my dad last night, he came over and i made dinner for my dad and him. they seemed to get along. that makes me happy. i met his dad and step mom the very first day we started dating. they’re way nice people too. ummmm yeah me and my parents are taking my niece and nephew camping this weekend and its been all planned for like 2 months and i’ve been soo excited for it but now im like dreading the weekend without derek. hehe actually im still excited ‘cuz it should be really fun. i love going camping. and besides its only gonna be 2 days that i wont see him ‘cuz i’ll get to see him friday morning before he goes to work and i’ll be home by the time he is on monday night too. growl im happy. i was talking to my sister yesterday and she’s like you sound happy and im like yeah i am happy, i figured out what i’ve been doing wrong, and she’s like oh whats that and im like i havent been dating guys that actually like me. hehe blah derek is all cutely obsessed over me. like i am with him. he calls me like on every single one of his breaks at work and brings me dinner to work and takes me out and he is just so sweet to me i cant handle it. i guess im just sorta not used to guys who actually do what they say and i’ve never had a boyfriend that goes beyond everything he says he’s gonna do and makes me feel special. i dont know its so weird. i told myself not to let myself get too attatched and the funny thing is that i think he is more attatched to me at this point. last night he was telling me how crazy it was that he feels this way so soon then he said he thinks he had a case of ‘almost love at first sight’ with me. but we’re both being really careful at keeping things slowed down, its good not to rush things. oh and and best part here. . .he likes 311!!!!!!!! yeah!!!! so before we started dating i asked him to go to their concert with me in august and he said yeah and he got all excited to take me and even before we were dating he had asked me to let him pay for the tickets and drive and everything. and he has this best friend thats also his roomate and he’s a crazy crazy guy and his roomate really likes me too and his co-worker guy that stays with them all the time likes me too i guess. so im glad that his friends dig me and i really enjoy them they’re really cool to hang out with. makes being together all the time easier when i get along with everybody he is will all the time and lives with. hmmm yeah i have to go do laundry and pack clothes for the weekend now because i was supposed to do it tomorrow night so we could leave right after i got off work on friday but derek ended up getting thursdays off so now i will have no time after work tomorrow. not like that breaks my heart ‘cuz i’ll be with derek and we’re going out but now i gotta do it all today before work. at least i got an early start. derek left for work at 6 this morning and i slept until he called me at 8 and then i came home and started laundry and all that. luckily me and my dad got the whole house cleaned last night so we dont have to worry about that now either. i even cleaned my bathroom. i hate cleaning bathrooms. but i was in a good mood last night so i was all excited doing it and it didnt take me long at all. i even mopped. thats rare for me. i think i even have all my clothes picked out so i should be done soon. but not if i sit here typing all day. grrrrrrr im just excited and havent written in forever. i havent had anything to say really. but i had been keeping myself pretty busy with work and spending time with my niece and nephew, i hadnt been dwelling on the sean thing and i actually never got really upset over it. so im glad that i kept my head up and didnt get all depressed. i mean from the time me and sean broke up until i started dating derek i had still been pretty happy. so it was easy for me to just get even happier since i wasnt depressed at all. oh excpet for damn ben and jerry’s completely stopped making my favorite ice cream. oh yes im still bitter over that. haha. oh my god this is so long. i have to go change the laundry and get in the shower!!!! hehe

random song of the day: (i lurve this song lots)
song: bon jovi
artist: 
I guess this time you’re really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you’ve cried a thousand rivers
And now you’re swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won’t save me anymore
I’m praying to God you’ll give me one more chance girl

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
I’d steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what love can do
I’ll be there for you

I know you know we’ve had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can promise you tomorrow
But I can’t buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I’ll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I’ll be the wine

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
I’d steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what love can do
I’ll be there for you

I wasn’t there when you were happy
And I wasn’t there when you were down
Didn’t mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I’d seen you blow those candles out

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
I’d steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what love can do
I’ll be there for …

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
I’d steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what love can do
I’ll be there for you …