damn it all to hell!!!!!

well ryan came over yesterday and started in on me right away. . .ranting about me and garrett not coming back or not calling and how he thinks we’re lying to him. so i finally got him calmed down and i thought it was ok so we were eating lunch and doing our laundry and he just starts in on how he wants to kill garrett now. i was starting to get pissed off because 1) it wasnt that big of a deal and 2) he needs to get over it!!! so i finally just told him to shut up pretty much and then he asked me to go to green river with him and i told him i didnt want to because i had planned to watch this movie then go somewhere with kailee so we got into this huge fight screaming at each other and getting in each others faces and it was bad the neighbors probably thought we were going to kill each other. so he left and said he was never going to call me or talk to me again (which i knew wasnt true) so about 4 hours later he called me and had calmed down and so i went over to talk to him face to face and we actually had a decent conversation. only minimal yelling. he started in on me about how i never do things for him and go places with him and i was like ryan this is the first time in like forever i’ve told you no to something. you make it seem like just because ‘we’ (and when i said we i meant like people and his friends in general) dont jump up everytime you say so that we’re all awful people and dont care about you. then he was like ‘we’ who is ‘we’ who the fuck are you talking too about this now. and so now he thinks me and garrett are in a conspiracy to ruin his life i think. we’ll be ok i’m sure but im still a little mad at him and im sure he’s a little mad at me still too. anyway random song quote of the day: song: kick some ass artist: stroke 9 quote: ‘And how many people wanna kick some ass? I would if I could. But I’m really just a sensitive artist. . .Perpatrating like I am the hardest. . .Acting like I’m not the smartest. . .I’m really just a sensitive artist’