hello there, the angel from my nightmare

oh my god i thought today was never going to end it just kept going and going. blahhhh. i woke up at 7am to get ready for my little cousins wrestling meet. so we get ready and go over there and im secretly praying the whole time that sean would be there. i dont know why but he is really starting to grow on me. i havent been for sure about it. i mean i know he likes me. and i like him on some level. and now im like going crazy ‘cuz im not with him. i just dont get me. i didnt think i would like him like im starting to and i dont know if i should keep liking him like this. but anyway i walked into the gym and somehow, it was so weird but somehow my eyes managed to find him right away in the crowd. (probably because secretly thats exactly who i was looking for) my stomach got all balled up and i practically ran over to where he was sitting!! hehe im a dork. as soon as we made eye contact he started blushing and smiling and i couldnt wait to go be near him!! hehe so i went and sat by him and well here is where the situation gets a little tricky. try to follow. . .my cousin, sunshine, (the mother of the little one we all went to watch wrestle) is the one that introduced me to sean. wel1 her and her husband, kelly, live with kelly’s dad, stan, and step-mom, judy, and sean. i had never met stan or judy before. so im sitting there next to sean and this lady walks up to me and goes ‘oh you must be michelle, it’s nice to finally meet you. i’m judy’ so im a little weirded out because i dont know how she knows about me and why has she been so interested in finally meeting me? ok so we’re sitting there and she’s just trying to get to know me like im going to end up marrying sean or something or like she knows he is really into me and is just trying to approve or something?!?!? i dont know. so the whole morning was great i hung out with my family and sean and we had a blast. sean is so funny and very sweet. i could go off on about a million little things that happened and how he is sort of making me fall for him!!! but anyway we were talking and i was still unsure really how he came to be friends with my cousins and live with them right? so he finally tells me that the girl he was dating when he moved here from florida is judy’s daughter. he is living with his ex girlfriends mom and step dad and my cousins. it is the weirdest thing ever!!!! but it sort of makes me believe that he is a really awesome guy if his ex girlfriends mother still trusts and respects him enough to let him live in her house!?!?!?! so yeah its towards the end of the wrestling meet and im rubbing his shoulders and he was all ‘oh that feels good, do it harder, yeah like that’ haha and everybody in my family was looking at us and smiling and they all think we’re dating actually!!! which we’re not!!! so anyway he walked me to my car and he was holding my hand and he kissed me and we made plans to hang out next weekend if he has some time and he’s gonna come see me at work and what not so it was pretty cool. oh oh yeah we just got a new digital camera so when i get it working hopefully i can get a pic of sean on here 🙂 sweet huh!?!?! anyway. . .im really not pushing for anything to happen. but im sort of hoping it will. especially after thinking about the situation all day. i dunno!?!?!? so after my exhilirating morning *smile* me and some of my family went to my great aunts 90th birthday party and that was pretty cool. but not too exciting other than the fact that one of my other cousins (who is actually sunshines sister) came up to me and asked what the deal was with me and sean and she seemed a bit to curious about it all and its even weirder because since the first night i met him i thought she had liked him a little bit. so i hope im not stepping on any toes here. but if he likes me and i like him and something just ends up happening im not feeling bad about it because that would be just my luck. something actually works out for me then a situation with my cousin would go and ruin it!!! i hope not!!! grrrrr i’ve just babbled for soo long about sean and i started this entry being about how long and exhausting my day was!!!! so let me finish it off. after the birthday party i went to work and it was sooo slow but i did get to watch 50 first dates. i hadnt seen it yet. i really liked it. but anyway yeah hehe im done rambling even though i know you all love hearing about my out of wack emotions that i have no idea how to control and dont know what to do about them!!! i kinda need some advice or at least some words of comfort or wisdom or anything ‘cuz im really going crazy about sean, and the cousin situation, and the judy situation, and the whole situation in general ‘cuz i dont know what im doing, which is really weird for me ‘cuz im usually so much more in control with things like this (ok well at least im better at pretending i’m more in control with these things)!!! hehe random song quote of the day: song: i miss you artist: blink 182 (normally not that big of a blink fan but this song really rocks) quote: ‘hello there, the angel from my nightmare, the shadow in the background of the morgue, the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley we can live like jack and sally if we want to. where you can always find me, we’ll have halloween on christmas and in the night we’ll wish this never ends, we’ll wish this never ends’