lets make out. . .i mean hang out

i havent been on the computer in like 2 whole days its crazy. anyway i really really really love my new bed. its so comfy and warm. now i just need a boy to come share it with me. sean is coming over tonight. . .but i have to work. how crappy is that!!!! *tear* i shouldnt care. stop caring michelle. gahhhhh. i try not to care. if its going to happen it will happen. but if not i dont think i should freak out about the situation. blah whatever i hate being a girl sometimes ‘cuz i get this way over little things. its ok though i think i’ll live if i dont get to see him tonight. it’s my sisters birthday today too and my uncles birthday was tuesday. so my parents are having a party at my house tonight (which i have to miss. . .boooo) and then my sister is having a party this saturday for my nephew ‘cuz his birthday is next wednesday. and we’re having a birthday party this sunday for my other cousin on sunday ‘cuz her birthday is next week too!! soo many birthdays. but its good ‘cuz sean should be there at both of them this weekend. even though i don’t really care if he is or not (ha yeah right) oh i watched a movie with doug and chris last night. it was pretty fun. we watched ‘saw’ it freaked me out. im such a baby when it comes to scary movies. at least i got to watch it with 2 boys so i wasnt as scared. even though doug kept wanting to ‘comfort’ me. gahhh i wanted to kill him. i have never given him any sign that i would appreciate him touching me. he’s so dumb!!! but chris is yummy and i cant decline opportunities to be around a yummy boy. so i avoided being touched by doug as much as possible. i told him i didnt really like being touched in affectionate ways or something really weird like that and chris just started laughing ‘cuz he knows doug just gets on my nerves. bahhhh!!! dumb boys!!!!!!! but then i made doug go outside to start my car and while he was gone chris was like why don’t you ever call me and im like ‘cuz of doug and he was like who cares just call me and im like ok so we can make out, oh i mean hang out and he just smiled then doug walked in and touched my hair and i wanted to puke!!!! why is doug retarded?? i obviously dont like him and the only times i ever hang out with him is when im for sure that chris will be there, then i tell him that i dont like being touched and try to avoid eye contact with him at all costs. why cant he just get the hint. he thinks its necessary to walk me to my car even though i told him i could handle it and i was getting in and i was pulling my leg in and he started touching my leg like i couldnt put my leg in the car by myself. then he tried to kiss my cheek and i moved away really fast and i think i made a gross out face. then he said he’ll call me later. what the hell is is malfunction!!!! i just want to suck on chris’s face thats all. thats the only reason doug ever gets to be in the same room as me. wow i just sounded really mean. im normally not that mean but come on doug is really really really stupid. anyway i have to get ready for work. work which is going to make me miss out on seeing sean tonight. well most likely. my mom did say that she would try to talk him into bringing me dinner tonight at work if he comes by our house. how sweet of her dont you think!?!?!? my mom is the best. not only for that reason but because we were talking about it last night and i mentioned how i could call in sick to stay home and she laughed and said that would be a good idea. silly mom hehe random song quote of the day: song: i want to save you artist: something corporate quote: ‘she dreams that he’ll come by the store, she prays for days when boys mean she’s protected. and she wants someone to see her, she needs to hear she’s beautiful, she’s beautiful’