Chapter 11-Family
One Saturday morning, I woke up to an empty bed, and the house was quiet.
I walked downstairs to notice that Pam’s Jeep was gone, and then I found the note.
“I took the girls out for a few hours, we will be back before Lunch, enjoy the quiet. Love- Pam.”
Later that morning, I heard Pam’s jeep pull into the drive. The girls crept through the house, giggling, and then hurried upstairs as if hiding something. Pam called up to them, “Girls, start getting packed to leave for Charlotte on Sunday. We’re going to be gone a week!”
I walked downstairs to notice that Pam’s Jeep was gone, and then I found the note.
“I took the girls out for a few hours, we will be back before Lunch, enjoy the quiet. Love- Pam.”
Later that morning, I heard Pam’s jeep pull into the drive. The girls crept through the house, giggling, and then hurried upstairs as if hiding something. Pam called up to them, “Girls, start getting packed to leave for Charlotte on Sunday. We’re going to be gone a week!”
We arrived in Charlotte, and I didn’t realize how busy Pam and the others truly were during the week of WrestleMania, with their numerous meet-and-greets and media appearances. Pam became very distant from me. The next morning, she was in our suite’s bathroom, getting dressed. I quickly climbed out of bed and wrapped my arms around her from behind. “Not now, Brittany, I’m running behind.” She snapped at me.
I backed off, unsure why she was angry with me, and walked back into our room. Pam stood in the doorway, grabbed her bag, and said, “Bye, Britt, I will see you later for dinner,” leaving without a kiss. I crawled into our bed and broke down. The girls were out with Sydney and Cathey; later, we were supposed to meet them for Lunch and sightseeing. I texted Sydney, telling her to send the girls back whenever the fun wore off, but I knew the girls adored Sydney and Cathey. Not feeling well, I decided to skip sightseeing. After my tears, I gave myself a migraine.
I woke up later, and I noticed I had a couple of missed texts. One from Sydney, “Can we keep the girls another night? We’re having a blast with our nieces.” I responded, “Yeah, have fun.” Then I saw the missed text from Pam. As soon as I opened it, my heart was ripped from my chest. I knew she didn’t mean to send it to me. “She’s so clingy lately, I don’t know how to talk to her without sounding mean or insensitive.” I sent a quick text to Sydney asking her to send the girls back to my room immediately. In under 15 minutes, the girls walked through the door. In front of Sydney, I told the girls, “Pack your stuff, we’re leaving, don’t ask questions, just pack.” I said, throwing my stuff into my suitcase. “Girl, what’s going on? Calm down.” Sydney said, looking scared. I opened the text message from Pam and then tossed my phone to her. “My girls and I are leaving. If my being loving is a problem, then it’s one I can easily fix.” I said, zipping my suitcase. Sydney stared at me, shocked and in disbelief. She quickly pulled out her phone and dialed, “You need to get here and get here quick like an SOS emergency. She said before she hung up.
“Why call an SOS emergency? What’s it gonna do? She said it, and it was accidentally sent to me. My heart is shattered right now, and nothing you or anyone else does will fix this. So I’m out, Nikki, Cici, let’s go, we are going home.” I said, tears streaming down my face. Cici entered the room with her suitcase.” Mom, what’s going on?” She said, looking at me with concern in her eyes. “I will explain later. I want to go home.” I said, grabbing my carry-on.
We left the room and headed for the elevators just as the ones opposite our hall buzzed and opened. Tori was the first to step off into the hallway. Nikki, whom I had been dragging away from the hotel room, pulled away from me and made a beeline for Tori. “Aunt Tori, Mom’s making us leave, I want to stay.” She said, wrapping her arms around Tori’s waist in a death grip. I watched Tori pick her up and carry her away from the others.
I walked past the others to where Tori was comforting Nikki. “Come on, Nicole, we’re gonna miss our flight, don’t make this any harder than it already is,” I said, attempting to take her from Tori. “Brittany, both girls want to stay. I don’t know what’s going on, but look at your daughters, they are confused and terrified as to why their mother is dragging them away from the family they have grown to love for the last 9 months, only to leave them just as deeply. Let me take them for tonight, you need to calm down, and talk to Pam, we can revisit this tomorrow.” Demi said, stepping between me and Nikki.
Turning, I saw Cici with Mercedes. Trinity said, “We’re your family. Disappearing isn’t the answer.” I sighed in defeat. “Just tonight. Tomorrow, we’re going back to San Jose,” I said, leaving for the hotel suite.
After showering, Pam waited at the foot of the bed. “Brittany Marie, I love you more than I ever thought possible. That text wasn’t about you; it was about Charlee. I meant to send it to Leah. Sorry, I hurt you. Please forgive me and stay. I love that you’re loving now; nine months ago, you wouldn’t let me hug you,” Pam said as I dressed.
Pam stood up before I could react and put her arms around me, pulling me into a hug.
“Why didn’t you tell me it was about Charlee?” I asked, wiping my tears. “I didn’t realize I sent it to you until Mercedes messaged me to come back quickly. I came in during the confrontation, then heard you say you’d take the girls to San Jose and saw you storm back into our room.”
Again, before I could react, clothes were flying, Pam was all over me, and vice versa. When we were done, I started to fall asleep in her arms. I felt her move. “Please stay with me,” I said, trying to curl up around her body to prevent her from leaving. “Babe, I have to get back. I only had a short amount of time before I had to be back for the show. I will be back as soon as I can, I promise.” She said that’s when I noticed her picking up her ring pants and pulling them up before sliding them on and tying them. I rolled my back to her. “Britt, please don’t be this way, please don’t be upset with me, I will be back.” She said before trying to kiss me on the side of the head. I pulled away from her. “I love you.” She said before she exited the room.
Exhausted by the day’s emotions—Pam’s absence, the text, arguments, her apology, and our moment together—I barely held off a panic attack. I took a long, cool shower to calm myself, then slept until midnight. When Pam arrived drunk, I gently helped her change, and she looked at me adoringly. “You’re so pretty. I knew from the start you’d be mine,” she murmured, then kissed me.
I woke up the next morning to Pam moaning from the bathroom. “You alright, Pammy?” I said, trying to hold in my giggle. “I am never drinking with Damian and Kayden again. I have a meet and greet this morning, and I have a hangover the size of London. I can’t cancel.” She spoke. I got up and grabbed her a leftover greasy burger and fries. “This will help, I figured you would need it after you came in at midnight drunk off your ass,” I said, handing her the burger and fries along with some Tylenol and a hangover drink I had in the fridge. She looked at me with love in her eyes. “I’m sorry for yesterday’s misunderstanding, and I’m sorry I didn’t come back as soon as the show was over. I wanted to give you time to cool down. How did you know to get me a greasy burger and fries?” She said
“I realized when you didn’t come back by 11 that you were out with friends. I know how you get when Tequila is involved, so I Uber Eats food at 11:30, so you had a greasy burger and fries and a hangover recovery for this morning,” I said with a halfhearted smile.
After showering, Pam waited at the foot of the bed. “Brittany Marie, I love you more than I ever thought possible. That text wasn’t about you; it was about Charlee. I meant to send it to Leah. Sorry, I hurt you. Please forgive me and stay. I love that you’re loving now; nine months ago, you wouldn’t let me hug you,” Pam said as I dressed.
Pam stood up before I could react and put her arms around me, pulling me into a hug.
“Why didn’t you tell me it was about Charlee?” I asked, wiping my tears. “I didn’t realize I sent it to you until Mercedes messaged me to come back quickly. I came in during the confrontation, then heard you say you’d take the girls to San Jose and saw you storm back into our room.”
Again, before I could react, clothes were flying, Pam was all over me, and vice versa. When we were done, I started to fall asleep in her arms. I felt her move. “Please stay with me,” I said, trying to curl up around her body to prevent her from leaving. “Babe, I have to get back. I only had a short amount of time before I had to be back for the show. I will be back as soon as I can, I promise.” She said that’s when I noticed her picking up her ring pants and pulling them up before sliding them on and tying them. I rolled my back to her. “Britt, please don’t be this way, please don’t be upset with me, I will be back.” She said before trying to kiss me on the side of the head. I pulled away from her. “I love you.” She said before she exited the room.
Exhausted by the day’s emotions—Pam’s absence, the text, arguments, her apology, and our moment together—I barely held off a panic attack. I took a long, cool shower to calm myself, then slept until midnight. When Pam arrived drunk, I gently helped her change, and she looked at me adoringly. “You’re so pretty. I knew from the start you’d be mine,” she murmured, then kissed me.
I woke up the next morning to Pam moaning from the bathroom. “You alright, Pammy?” I said, trying to hold in my giggle. “I am never drinking with Damian and Kayden again. I have a meet and greet this morning, and I have a hangover the size of London. I can’t cancel.” She spoke. I got up and grabbed her a leftover greasy burger and fries. “This will help, I figured you would need it after you came in at midnight drunk off your ass,” I said, handing her the burger and fries along with some Tylenol and a hangover drink I had in the fridge. She looked at me with love in her eyes. “I’m sorry for yesterday’s misunderstanding, and I’m sorry I didn’t come back as soon as the show was over. I wanted to give you time to cool down. How did you know to get me a greasy burger and fries?” She said
“I realized when you didn’t come back by 11 that you were out with friends. I know how you get when Tequila is involved, so I Uber Eats food at 11:30, so you had a greasy burger and fries and a hangover recovery for this morning,” I said with a halfhearted smile.
“As angry as you were at me yesterday, I’m surprised you did this for me, but then again, no, I’m not because you have a heart of gold. How did I get in pajamas?” she said, before taking a bite of her burger.
“I got you into your pajamas. Do you remember anything that you said to me last night as I was helping you get dressed?” I asked, hoping she would.
“No, babe, I’m afraid I don’t,” she said, looking slightly afraid.
“You put your hands on my face and told me that you knew the night you approached me at the club, that we were going to be together, and you told Trinity and Mercedes that I was going to be yours forever,” I said, repeating her words from the night before.
“Oh yeah, I did know, and I did tell the girls that you were mine. I still laugh about Daria calling dibs on me when I was calling dibs on you. Can you believe we’re approaching 10 months together, and 7 months of us being serious? I wouldn’t have it any other way, Brittany. I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you and our girls,” she said before kissing me on the forehead.
“What do you want to do tonight, stay in the room and order room service, go out to dinner and dancing, or Dinner and a movie?” She asked as she put on her shoes. “Can we stay in, have dinner, and watch a movie?” I said, just wanting some alone time with her. “Yeah, we can do that, whatever you want, babe. That’s why I asked. I will meet you back here around 5:00. I was thinking maybe we can go to the boardwalk for a bit, come back here for dinner, a movie, and snuggles?” She said, “I like that idea.” I said, kissing her as she grabbed her backpack and the hotel room key and was heading out the door. “Love you, Britt,” she said, leaving the room.
Later, Cici and Nikki arrived with Demi and Tori. “You and Pam okay?” Demi asked. “Yes, we worked it out. The text wasn’t about me; it was about Charlee,” I explained. Demi nodded, sharing how Charlee had been difficult for everyone, and advised us to ignore her drama. Tori offered to take the girls to the water park. “I’ll check if Pam wants to go when she gets back,” I said. Nikki asked, “Are you and Momma breaking up?” I hugged her. “No, we’re fine. Go have fun with your aunts.”
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“What do you want to do tonight, stay in the room and order room service, go out to dinner and dancing, or Dinner and a movie?” She asked as she put on her shoes. “Can we stay in, have dinner, and watch a movie?” I said, just wanting some alone time with her. “Yeah, we can do that, whatever you want, babe. That’s why I asked. I will meet you back here around 5:00. I was thinking maybe we can go to the boardwalk for a bit, come back here for dinner, a movie, and snuggles?” She said, “I like that idea.” I said, kissing her as she grabbed her backpack and the hotel room key and was heading out the door. “Love you, Britt,” she said, leaving the room.
Later, Cici and Nikki arrived with Demi and Tori. “You and Pam okay?” Demi asked. “Yes, we worked it out. The text wasn’t about me; it was about Charlee,” I explained. Demi nodded, sharing how Charlee had been difficult for everyone, and advised us to ignore her drama. Tori offered to take the girls to the water park. “I’ll check if Pam wants to go when she gets back,” I said. Nikki asked, “Are you and Momma breaking up?” I hugged her. “No, we’re fine. Go have fun with your aunts.”
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